Accepting My Fatness

[kisekinotenshi]

This is something that I've been working toward for a long, long time. Probably since I was in high school, possibly even before. So when I say to you that this has been a revelation, please don't think that I mean it in a "this happened overnight" way

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[pixiethief]

*cheers*

[shoiryu]

HA, interestingly, when I first started reading this, I thought, I'll link her to Shapely Prose! She'll love it! And then I saw it was the inspiration. ♥

I'm in your mother's position, actually. I was built sturdy but slim all through high school, then hit about 19 and started getting bigger, and here I am at over 200 pounds. And I'll tell you one thing -- if you were thinner, and then got bigger, the people around you never let you forget it. (Namely my folks.) At any give time there are pretty much two out of three things in my life that my mom will nag me about to the point of being incredibly upsetting, and those three things are work, school, and my weight. It's fun. X( Not.

[kisekinotenshi]

I'm not trying to demonize my mother here. I understand that this is a problem largely caused by being the only one with weight problems in her entire family (seriously, both my aunts and my grandma are like size 8s, and only that big because they're all so tall). I also understand that everything she did to me was out of love and the hope that I wouldn't end up like her. That doesn't really make it any less sucky or manipulative, but it would've been way worse if she simply hated having a fat daughter or didn't care about me at all. And she's always been incredibly supportive in other areas of my life, especially singing. She is thrilled that I'm talented and pursuing my dreams, now if she could just accept me as my current weight. x.x

[shoiryu]

Aw, I didn't mean it to come out that way, sorry -- trust me, my mom is the biggest upsetting factor in my own weight struggles! I was just sort of trying to explain that I was similar to her, lol. SORRY

[greybeta]

Being yourself is the key to happiness.

[kisekinotenshi]

If I had any expendable income right now, I would seriously go out and buy a shirt that was in a bright color and sequined, just so I could wear it out in public today and tomorrow. XD

I know that this is going to take a lot of work for me, but I'm just so thrilled that I finally got here, I want to celebrate it.

[kisekinotenshi]

I settled for a tight black tank top with sequins. ;D Dear World: My boobs, let me show you them! XD XD XD

I am just so happy about it. <3 It's so nice to feel like I'm doing something right for once.

[hokuton_punch]

W007! ♥ ♥ ♥