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[kishirepantera]

I suck. I haven't been making any time to sit in front of my computer and keep up with anything. I'm 3 episodes behind in Bleach. I don't post regularly anymore. I hardly comment on entries or reply to comments I receive. I don't know what's tearing me away from my house so much lately. I wish this entry could be longer and more apologetic but I'm

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[phlegmaticphrog]

Don't feel guilty, you're just having a real life and that's a good thing. Eventually, you'll probably get tired of running around and need some me time, and when you do your anime and f-list will still be here to entertain you.

So go have a life, so that when you do post those without one can live vicariously through you!

[kishirepantera]

You are so right about that. I forgot how freakin comfortable my own bed was haha. Just lounging and watching tv, with my sandwich and my milk and my mom just made cookies so Emily is parking her ass at home today! :D

[hope_assassin]

Excuse me while I'm being painfully frank, something that would probably get my heart racing if I ever had to tell you in person because of a huge mix of emotions, and maybe that's the reason why it's so easy to say it when you can't get to reply immediately, but my very deep running issues aside, here's what I have to say in all honesty: What irked me is that you were ready to bail out on people and just about stand on one arm while balancing an egg on your tip-toe high in the air when it was for Keith but you didn't want to make some time for us who supported you and keep loving you and worrying and all that shit.

But, again, my moronic, low-self-esteem-bred issues put aside, I am really, truly happy you're enjoying yourself outside of the net and experiencing the real things, what's more to life than e-buddies and online anime. Really, I'm very glad. ^_^ I just wish that... I could get to be a part of that too, you know? With hearing from you again, and getting to share your happiness, success, help you through your worries... I

[kishirepantera]

I can understand what you mean about how I treat Keith. I even noticed it about myself. I sort of thought of it as being almost pet-like: he calls, I come running. And I realize that it's probably wrong for me to even be okay with it, but whether Keith wants to admit it or not, there is a tiny something there, and I know that on some level he does care about me. I don't know. It wouldn't make sense if I tried to explain it

[hope_assassin]

Well, I don't know what to tell you, I haven't been in the same situation so I couldn't possibly know how I'd behave if I were in your shoes in regards to your Keith situation but at any rate, I think you can do better. Or at least that you could take a step back or something, and he'll come back yearning. ^_~ And if he doesn't, then he wasn't worth it in the first place, so yeah. But I'll stop pushing my nose in stuff that's none of my business really, and to tell you the truth, I know there is something, not really all as tiny as you try to make it out to be, either but he just can't notice it because he's feeling pressured in some way or another perhaps. Thus my crazy advices. But anyway, enough about that. xD

[anemoneoflight]

No need for you to feel guilty, not at all! If you're too busy for the computer then we'll take it as a good sign because it means you're preoccupied doing things and living your life. Enjoy yourself and know that we'll all happily welcome you with open arms no matter what happens. *hugs*

[kishirepantera]

That makes me feel better ^_^ I just didn't want all you lovely friends of mine to feel neglected and whatnot because that's truly not the case. I've just been getting the strangest sensations, whether it's just wanting to get out of the house or even when I do sit down in front of my computer, the moment I do I just get too exhausted to read anything. Even my emails. Ah well, at any rate, Homebody-Emily is back for now. I missed playing KH2. :D