Saw Nicole yesterday. She is good. I see her 4 hours a day. It is better with Sue. She is happier there. Dan sees her for Christmas Eve and I get Xmas Day with her. He is seeing her on his birthday next week too. I passed my parenting class so I am a step further to get Nicole back soon. Still pregnant.... hopefully the baby will be a ( Read more... )

Well, Dan pulled in last night I guess. He hasn't bothered to call and check on the baby yet. He must be on duty or whatever. Today is my grandmother's birthday. She died 3 years ago, but I still like to wish her a birthday and Christmas cheer. I graduated my parenting class last night. Josh is going on Christmas leave today for 18 days. I ( Read more... )

Now I am getting sick. Yay for me. Josh has to go to the hospital since he is spitting up blood. He is really ill. I can't wait for Dan to get back. I want to have the baby when he is home and not out to sea. We maybe getting a divorce, but he is still the father and I want him there more then anything. I want him to share in the magical ( Read more... )

Saw Nicole today. We played with pudding and made pictures out of it, then we ate the pudding. Josh is sick, he has the flu or something. I am kinda sick too. Nicole should be living with Sue sometime next week, hopefully. I got my Christmas tree and Dickens collection back from Dan and Sue finally. I am almost 8 months pregnant on the 16th ( Read more... )

I got my food stamps. Yay me! Sue is finally in Cali.

I am so damn bored and I just can't fucking sleep. I am so miserable. My restless leg syndrome is acting up so it is making it real hard to fall asleep. I have to drive to Nicole's in 7 hours without sleep so far. This ain't cool. I can't wait to see her though. I am going to try and get some food stamps for myself and the unborn baby ( Read more... )

Just sittin here bored as hell and depressed. I have no life. This sucks. Josh is working right now. Sue, Dan's mom, is almost here. She will take temp. guardianship of Nicole till we can have her back. She is in Phoniex, so hopefully tomorrow she'll be in Cali. Then maybe in a week or two, Nicole will be back home. Dan will probably have ( Read more... )

my grandpa died on thursday.

Josh came home and surprised me last night. He kinda just showed up at the door and rang the bell. I answered the door and saw him there. I am so glad he is back.

i miss you.....