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whats with all the orange things
uhh. yeah last night after practice which i did good at :-D i slept over at emilys house with hannika. twas fun. hannikas hilariouse. i missed her. she was my best friend in sixth grade. haha good times. we made a cake. oommggg yeah so i had atleastttttttt TWELVE effing cookies last night. IM SO GROSS. and two pieces of our cake. sick sick sick sick sick. god im such a fat ass. hah we watched zoolander. i love that movie. yep. then today i got my hair cut. its not any shorter just a lot a lot of layers and i like it a lot a lot. yeah. i dont feel like hanging out with anyone tonight. im stupid. when i actually get to hang out with people i dont want to. i want everyone to leave the house so i can be home alone. i love being home alone. tis fun. tommor i might possiby get to go to chitown with lauren cuz shes goin turnabout dress shopping there. im not looking for a dress yet, only cause i still dont know what time my tournament is annddd i dont wana go anymore. i mean, i do, cause i love going to dances and having a date and stuff, but i really honestly doooonnnnntttt like any fucking one and im getting so sick of it. i want to like my date a lot that makes it so much better. and the two guys i was thinking about asking i dont really like that much like that. and, if i ask someone and then i end up not being able to go, id feel bad. so im pretty much about to just say fuck it. i need to think about it. i have too many people i want to hang out with. you wanna know something bad, i kinda dont care about something i should anymore. its kinda sad that i dont care, i use to care a lot. but it seemed like the other people didnt care so i just kinda gave up caring. i have too many other people to think about now so, meh. im lonley. well, sometimes i feel very loved, and other times, like now, i feel lonley. uuugghhh i wanna like someonfeeeeeeeeeeeee. fjkaj;efw its been so effing long its so weird. bitch ruined me. ha. hahah. erg. i like art classss. not only cause emilys in it, not only cuz mr.gallow likes me, but because art is a fun way to express yourself. sept my best art piece i ever ever made mr.gallow kept last year. grrrrr. i dont even get to look at my best piece of art :-( i forgot what it looks like. ive made a trillion new friends this week. its pretty neat. in gym i was the last person to get into volleyball. YES! next year im taking astronomy. my teacher is making me take chemistry next year too :-( she says i have a future in science blah blah blah so why would i wana ruin it. whatevvaaaa. im taking psycology next year tooo. yayyayay. oh yeah and i got that test thing back. i did pretty good. annddd i did not so well in math, but thats not a suprise, but i didnt do terrible or anything. then i got ninety something percent in reading and science. i always new i was good at reading... hah. science and math like intertwine. i dont get how i can be sucky at one and good at another. and in english i did above average but my percentage wasnt that good so i dont understand that. then for a job they told me to work with people or some shit but i hate people. and also to do performing arts or something. like acting or a musician. too bad ive never been interested in acting and have never acted in my life. actually i was in a skit in eighth grade hah i was harriot tubman and my brothers class came and watched. that was funny. and yeah umm i kinda gave up on music. i do wana pick up the geetar again though, but i dont really have time... AHH that reminds me, WHEN AM I EVER GONA GET MY LISENCE AHH. so i found out someone who likes me. GOD WHY DO I ATTRACT SUCH WEIRDOS. seriouslly, i dont get it. i bet its cause they think im this easy nice girl who wouldnt turn them down. HA. hmm latley i have been in search of an explination for something i do not understand. i think i found one, but im not sure. and it still doest makes sence to me, but maybe thats cause ive never felt exactly like that, nor do i think i ever could cause i have a different mind set. but i wish i knew if it was right or not.
tomorrow = january 29 = BLEK!
mmmm. i duno what im gona do about volleyball next year. i dont know wether to try out for middle or right side next year at wvhs, well if i dont go down to peoria. i need to think about that too. whta im gona doooo. but yeah, i rather be right side, but i have a better chance maken varsity next year as a middle. and theeeen, next year theres only one 17 team at sports performance but 17 year olds combined with 18's if they are good enough but yeah its a lot harder to make it less year... ah. but also, they cut all the short people next year. i was looking at the rosters and there is no one shorter then 5'7 unless they are back row so...blah. i duno. what am i gona do if i dont make spri next year?!?! jfka;e. whatever. this ended up b eing a lot longer then i expected. peaceee.