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[kiss_your_elbow]

i am almost 26 years old. i am almost 30. i am almost 40. 50. 60. 70. 80. 90. 100. 1000000. dead and gone. i don't write poetry anymore. or if i do, i don't put it before anyone's eyes. i don't make mix tapes. i don't receive love letters. sometimes people stare at me like i have something on my face, but i don't. i kicked all the skeletons out of

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[kiss_your_elbow]

i appreciate all the kind words. but it sucks you're not going!! i just really don't know how to feel about the trip right now. it's really expensive...besides which, i have to buy an entire costume on top of all the other expenses! and i just really don't think i want to go unless i know the dance really well. i know one of my weaknesses is that i need lots of practice when it comes to memorizing steps. and i just have a bad feeling its all gonna be last minute, and then lola's gonna be like, "oh don't worry dewy, just spend a few hundred dollars to go and then we'll teach it to ya in the hotel room". and then no one actually will :)
i really love burlesque, but there are definitely lots of factors that are making me not really care about it at the moment...
and i'm sorry to hear about the rough times/rollercoaster ride you've been going through (i keep up on the lj!!), but i'm glad to see you working through it. and i'm glad to hear you're seeing the therapist more. stay strong, girl!

[kiss_your_elbow]

i know. i'm gonna give it some thought over the weekend. it's just like...whiskey and kitten and i got together on tuesday because they wanted to start hashing stuff out. and then lola sent out this email (don't know if you got it, i read it on my phone) basically saying "glad you're rehearsing, but i've got ideas we're gonna use, so don't get ahead of yourselves". which...i understand her point of view and wanting to be in charge of it...but at the same time, i think that's setting us up to not be prepared because of her schedule. i dunno. its probably a once in a lifetime experience for me...but at the same time, i keep thinking, "wouldn't it be cool to use this money on a vacation with leef? or one of my friends? or heck, to pay my bills?". eeps. we'll see. maybe i'm just getting nervous and geeking out.

[mathteacher]

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are you still reading this? yes.

don't you have something better to do? no.

go outside did that earlier--it's too hot out there.

judge me on my childish ideals. don't you know that judging you on your childish ideals is how you're judged to be so wonderful?

i always enjoy reading your longer entries like this.

i think i remember being 26 as kind of okay, maybe even good.

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[kiss_your_elbow]

:P hehe