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[kiss_your_elbow]

the contradictions inherent in feeling so defeated and determined at the same time: discuss.

my new years resolution seems muddied, but has something to do with getting rid of that little voice inside my head that constantly criticizes. it would be nice if i could finally stop believing that things go wrong cosmically because i'm not pretty enough

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[fuck__off__]

i'm not pretty enough

That's just not possible.

[kiss_your_elbow]

:p you have read almost a decade of my crazy. the idea that i don't think i'm pretty shouldn't be all that surprising. ha! but its not constant, and sometimes i think "well, dddammmmnnnn, i'm looking good". but sometimes i go through periods where i convince myself everything is caused by me being ugly - i fucked up that performance because i wasn't pretty enough, my boyfriend didn't kiss me because i'm not pretty enough, those girls don't want to be my friend, that soda spilt, etc, etc. just working on getting myself outta that funk right now.

[fuck__off__]

nearly 8 years (~Feb 6, 2003) of us reading each other's crazy (yes, i actually went back and found the first entry/comment, but you know i'm crazy like that). of course i'm not surprised that you occasionally forget how pretty you are. i know full well that you might think you're not pretty enough on some occasions. i'm simply saying that it's just not possible that you're actually not pretty enough. for anything. ever.

while i'm no expert on why girls are/aren't friends with one another, i'd suspect it's more likely girls wouldn't want to be friends with someone because they were too pretty than not pretty enough. and while i'm sure there's a your-mom joke along the lines of "you're momma's so ugly, the soda spilt itself trying to run away from her," i doubt it actually happens. ;)

*hugs*

[fuck__off__]

pleasepleaseplease post tales of your trip?

[iwishuponstars]

I don't understand how you can not feel pretty?!! You are absolutely adorable and totally smokin' in my opinion! <3

[kiss_your_elbow]

awww, thanks. you can read my response to the poster above too...just in a funky mood, that hits me every once in awhile. maybe its all this grey and cold we've been having this winter.

[iwishuponstars]

Don't worry...you're not the only one who feels this way. I've been feeling like a complete loon lately 'cause I've been so depressed and self loathing. But like you said...I tend to get major winter blues every year. It will pass. <33333

[1982atari]

you are beautiful <3

[kiss_your_elbow]

you are too :)