better. better. better. crushes crushes crushes ( Read more... )

its been a while since
someone else made me feel
desired.

You are just like everyone else.

Update: I met Rachel. She was super cute. And I ripped the knee of my jeans playing ultimate. I stayed up until 5AM walking around the track with Mr. Kamor at Realy for Life. I'm playing rugby next year, I miss it too much. On a side note, THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA FUCKING ROCK.

i can hear the jimmy buffet already.

It DID feel like a field trip. After months and months of just waiting for your new true colors coming through, you've become dead to me. And now you're dead to everyone else too. I'm just waiting for you evaporate completely so I can finally breathe deep.

man, everyone sucks at sticking around. is fading away the new trend? today i made molds of my hands. It felt symbolic. Tomorrow I'm gonna be actress and look at art. I'm looking forward to summer. And French Creek. And my party. But really, id like a little more substance here and there. Sometimes I love people so much I want to burst.

my heart feels heavy

I am hands down ridiculously happy.

One of the few things I know for sure, is that being young has its benefits. And though right now, nothing is perfect, I'm happier right now then I was when I was thinner or prettier or with straighter hair and whiter teeth. When I was little, I measure people's happiness by their beauty. I always assumed my mother was blissful. And as I got older ( Read more... )

Today Jeremy Keyes brought in pizza for the table because he lost a bet. I feel content. I shut off my phone today and spent the afternoon talking about boys with Mrs. Piccerella. We stayed up in her barn eating sushi with Rebecca and picking out literature for me to read. The house is filled with cats and sunlight and happy people. When I grow up ( Read more... )