Tonight was fun. I'd go so far as to say it was the most fun I've had all weekend. David and his church friends are fun. We went to this ALLYS meeting at this guys house. I drank coke with sleeping pills in it but, I'm not feeling the effects. We talked about listening to God in our lives, it was really cool. We also wrote letters to God, mine is ( Read more... )

When I screw up,I do it royally.

I'm so sick of consiquence and the look on your face.

I don't mean to,it's never caliculated or premeditated.I want to be the best but,no one is perfect. I wish I was good at showing what I felt, I tend to keep things inside.

It's like you wrote a letter for the president and everything then, when it was time to ( Read more... )

Two things I need to say to you&you:

1. Come on sweetie, smile with your teeth. I'll keep my fists down and try my best not to hit that beautiful mouth of yours.
2. You'll be my best kept secret and my biggest mistake.

 do you believe?do you believe? in anything, everything: selflessness, god, , love (love when you're 5, love when you're 105, or when ( Read more... )

I support my local middle school band/chorus music scene.

He pointed me out to his friends with his drumsticks, he has finally turned 14. My mom and his mom are on hospitality commity together, rumor has it he has a crush on me. It makes me laugh cause he blushes. Aw 8th graders,what fun. I tried to say hello to him, he waved and walked away.

"He covered page after page
with wild words of sorrow
and wilder words of pain.
There is a luxury in self-reproach.
When we blame ourselves,
we feel that no one else has
a right to blame us.
It is the confession,
not the priest, that gives us absolution."

Al-Thurthusi: Lines to His Absent Love ( Read more... )

I feel so sad lately.I'm so bothered by myself. I can't understand myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why I can't be content,why I push people and push them till they don't converse with me and frankly just don't like me. I can't focus on much of anything anymore. I don't do anything anymore except of what I am forced or driven ( Read more... )

He looks so cute when he sings.

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I think I've come to the conclusion too early that one day I am going to die.I don't think I am supposed to think about it now.I think it was supposed to happen when I was around 65,sitting on my porch,watching the sun, and then as the sun is setting into a purple sky, I'd understand I was going to eventually die.But, I've already made the ( Read more... )