I have reached a large part of my goal - I am in my own place with my own room! I am on my own.. now I only have to buy another car to secure my income for my home. I am going to have to walk to work until I buy a car - I cannot rely on other people anymore since I will be fired if I am late one more time in the next three months. Three months.. I ( Read more... )

Maybe it is hard to see while I'm in the middle of so many changes, but I know I am growing as a person.. I have given up so many bad habits.. it's amazing. I am becoming a whole new me - and yes, that sometimes means I need to push everyone away for a while.. how am I supposed to change with all of the same energy all around me? I am diving into ( Read more... )

So it is September again. All over again. I love this month, but she makes me weepy & sensitive.. I miss Brandon but I have been moving on for real I think. I have been slowly letting go of thinking he will come running back or that I would even accept him back. I have also mostly given up on trying to replace him. Nobody is good enough for me to ( Read more... )

I'm so ready.. so ready to move on & get through this transition. I need change.. I'm not afraid! Come on, hurry up, get it over with.. Selling the first car I ever bought all by myself.. hopefully I will find an even better one! Moving into a two bedroom apartment October 1st with Amanda Hamstreet. I've been hanging out with Dustin Hull & becoming ( Read more... )

Fuck You, Matthew Derosa. It's not that you read what I wrote that pissed me off, it's that you had to sneak on here like a little creep to read what I wrote. If you had just asked, I would have allowed. Immature twat ( Read more... )

My mother hates my guts. I want to move into my own place so bad - mostly to get away from her. I don't think I will want to speak to her again for a long long time. I am thankful for having a place to live after losing my home - and I am thankful that she helps me take care of my pets. I wish she didn't have to be so hurtful, though. Attacking me ( Read more... )

"I can't say no to you, Lauren ( Read more... )

I just can't get past the horror I find in allowing a person the ability to tug on my emotions - to create a pain that otherwise would not exist. Love is a decision. Left unspoken, it remains dormant. That's how I feel about it, anyway ( Read more... )

How can it be so easy to lose feelings ( Read more... )

I have struggled with knowing Why I do or think certain things. Why I feel certain ways. Who I am.. I used to make sense to myself - now that I am on my own in what I do, I have to think more carefully.. I don't have someone to turn to at any given moment and ask, "Is this what I should do?" & I am not complaining! It's just different. I no longer ( Read more... )