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i listened to the blower's daughter by damnie rice it wasn't a good song, i still have emchlor's at home test to do i think i'll do it tomorrow or lately tonight. i feel likely terid all of a sudden but i don't want to go to sleep i don't know this is a sucky time

okay so yeha i'm borad. at school at home and now i'm not going to los angles becausce my mom is sick. so this is anthor pointless updated about my pointless meaningless life. preheps i should go out and try something new like.....sex or i should call someone and just make-up with some random person i don't know and at this point i kind of don't ( Read more... )

god i'm having this feelings again and i don't want them....these are bad feelings. i hope they go away, the happy, hopes high feeling and they're going for the someone who yes is nice who isn't want i normally would go for but yeah i most likely won't be at vpac next year and he will and i don't wnat these feelings nad i'm sure he doesn't want me ( Read more... )

i'm still mad at dana. i don't want to talk to anyone and i won't. i'm not sure if i'm going to delte this or not. ryan and i talking is helping. i'm going back to scc tonight.

i think i should delet this thing i don't know. yeah i went to scc i have to go back tomorrow i'm going to take the chasp and get i'll fishen up my junior year.............................

i hate everything, nothing ism't right. it seems angery mattie is the cute mattie that everyone loves. that mattie that hates school and wants to put her hand there a wall...the one who is annoyed at people mroe then usal and is pissy! i'm about to have a mental breakdown. hopefully talking to ryan will make me feel better it always does. i'm just ( Read more... )

i don't want to go to school tomorrow. school = my own personal hell. i could take the high school persfish in june 25 and get out of high school or march 19 right before spring break. its going to coast 85 all the adults i know say its a good idea. andrew said he'd miss me but its my choice, chris thinks its a good idea, dana said she'd have done ( Read more... )

yeah i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i'm not going to be there on friday b/c i'm going to L.A. but yeah I've basily figtured it out I'm takeing my GED test at the end of this school year if I fail then I'll take it before school starts again and then gasp i won't have to put up with vapac or any of its shit. yay!

ummm yeha dana looked all pretty when we droped her off for her date i met him he's okay, cute but i don't know to much about him. looks like a mormon boy is all i'm going to say. i don't think he likes me to much. i took a picture of them together..........ummmmm yeah ( Read more... )