First club experience -- success!
learned how to dance
met new people
plan on going back.

Also, i'm beginning to think random people care more about my story than my friends

Not a day goes by that i don't think about when i was sexually abused
Not a day goes by that i know i'd be way different than i am today if it didn't happen
Not a day goes by that i wish i could tell someone how it kills me so much, how it alters my day to day behavior and inches me more distant away from anyone & everyone; i wish i could find ( Read more... )

So, now that i've gotten a lot of anger out, i decided it's my turn to take prerogative & write letters to those who i've hurt, made mad, or did something to them.  I'm still deciding whether i'll actually give the letters to them or just keep them to myself & add to them as i remember certain events.
After i make ammends that way, i decided i'm ( Read more... )

So the only highlight of my summer is no longer happening.. man this summer sucks.
pretty sure i've spent every day so far this summer drunk.
& most of the last month.
can't wait til it's over.

edit- 1:51am.
& then i realize, once again, i have the most amazing boyfriend ever, & completely made up for the hell someone else put me through.
Goodbye Couer D ( Read more... )

So, i decided to sign up for a summer class anyway.  I just want this summer to fly by.  I can't wait til it's over ( Read more... )

why am i so freakin insecure, i don't get it. There shouldn't be a need for it.  I guess i just can't help but notice how much  better i could be, what i need to improve & such.  I guess it doesn't help that i have a hard time admitting to my faults as well ( Read more... )

Last day of class.  My first final was a joke.. my teacher pretty much threw away the one she typed up & had us answer questions like "What did you like best about this class?", "What can i do to improve my teaching?" etc.
I was honest about it.
I kinda feel bad, but then again, i was pretty disappointed from the class from the start.  I didn't learn ( Read more... )

People need to post more! really! i like reading several paragraphs of your guy's lifes, even if it's just a casual day ( Read more... )

i've just been thinking about this whole moving case my family is trying to get into...
it's really starting to depress me :X
i guess i don't really want to move unless it's out of town..
it'll be the 3rd time moving to a different part of Tucson, it's a pain in the ass, & we're in a good spot right now that's close to everything.. i don't know what's ( Read more... )

i think my allergies developed into a cold :[  work was hell yesterday with it & i got another 9 hours ahead of me ( Read more... )