i cant even deal with this. im really tired of people saying that they care, and that they love me. im just speechless right now. i dont fucking understand how everything ended up like this.

so i wake up at 3:30 in the morning to my television blaring some terrible late-night movie in which children are running around screaming "kill! kill! kill!" and i completely freaked out. i was still 1/2 asleep, and changed the channel as quick as possible. unfortunately it wasn't quick enough and i had some wonderful nightmares afterwards. boo.

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i am a disappointment to myself.

go rutgers- 4-2 this season, lets keep the wins coming.

pictures are up now. look if you like.

so i watched (surprisingly) star wars with shany and tiney tonight, very cool... don't like things to be digitally remastered though...arg.

seeing it reminded me so much of you, how much you knew i loved the ewoks... how hard you tried to find one for me.. i miss that. and you.

hopefully having sweet dreams, ::praying the weekend is good::

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so i got a lot of sleep last night somehow, which rocks.

my day started by my professor being 45 minutes late to class because she wanted to finish grading our case studies, and im sure glad she did because i got an A-... woo hooo for me. shes awesome and im about to email her and tell her that, haha.

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long relaxing day + lots of thinking = a hopefully refreshed nicole for whatever lies ahead. starting to have a tiny bit of confidence that there might be a chance for me after all.

on a side note, i absolutely love svu. olivia, elliot, munch, tutuolo, rip alex... they all drive me crazy. just found out that they sell the episodes on dvd!!!! that ( Read more... )

Your Penis Name is: Gummi Worm

Get your own Penis Name

the ten commandments of college---> here

i just realized how much of the semester has passed already... thats crazy.

time to work out for about an hour and then shower and go to bed... early wake up...

i miss you filling our free time. 459.

so ive been burning a candle all night long to try and keep myself calm. it smells deliciously of apples and cinnamon. i <3 it very much.

today my job that ive been working at for over a year decided that they need some one to fill my position that can do it full time (even though ive given them nights and weekends when they ask, and am always ( Read more... )