A place no one knows of
So I've been staying away from FB for a while. I only have 45 friends on there and every time I post anything I feel like I've been exposed to the world. Even Twitter is not private enough for me. So I thought I could make this place into a secret box where I can just drop my rather private and/or offensive thoughts. At least I feel safe and cosy.
1. Urgh Rupert Graves has been driving me crazy. People don't understand the amount I love him and his face and his acting and his movie choices. He's just perfect. Also I put a picture of him over there on the sidebar with hopes that this place could be less emotional. At least when I'm desperate I could be reminded that there's still beauty in the world. Haha what is cheesy?!
2. {not true anymore}
3. I'm scared of being exposed, ripped out of my comfort zone and forced to open up all my secrets. I don't want strangers to know who I am. I don't want anything of this. Why did I ever think becoming a designer was a good I idea?
4. Sometimes when I'm alone, I think of Tum and the things I planned to do with him, and pretend like we were doing all of those things. I was so alone, and in a way, he was like my savior, a shred of light I hoped could help me get away somehow. He actually did. That's why I miss him so much. He was my baby. People think I should forget about him. They actually think I have forgotten about him. But I haven't. Because I can't. He was my baby and I miss him so badly. I wish I could have seen him grow a bit. Even taken some more pictures of him, recorded a video or something. Even though that would hurt me even more to look at. I just miss him a lot. I wish he never left me.
5. I can't make you a movie about why I'm sad because I myself don't fucking know why I'm sad.
6. Today was the first time I'm away from home during bad weather. My sister was joking about early Apocalypse and I was terrified at the real possibility of how I would likely to die alone. I guess it wouldn't matter anyway.
7. Sometimes I'd scratch my baby sister's head and forget that unlike Tum, she hates when I do that.
8. My heart will never not break at the sight of a cat.
9. In ten minutes, he singlehandedly reminded me why I fell for him and why we wouldn't have a chance.
10. I wish you know how I feel when I hear your voice and the things it does to me.
11. Every time we meet, we drift further apart.
12. Did you have nightmares? That's the only thing I want to know.
13. I lied. I also want to know if you're as miserable as I am.
1. Urgh Rupert Graves has been driving me crazy. People don't understand the amount I love him and his face and his acting and his movie choices. He's just perfect. Also I put a picture of him over there on the sidebar with hopes that this place could be less emotional. At least when I'm desperate I could be reminded that there's still beauty in the world. Haha what is cheesy?!
2. {not true anymore}
3. I'm scared of being exposed, ripped out of my comfort zone and forced to open up all my secrets. I don't want strangers to know who I am. I don't want anything of this. Why did I ever think becoming a designer was a good I idea?
4. Sometimes when I'm alone, I think of Tum and the things I planned to do with him, and pretend like we were doing all of those things. I was so alone, and in a way, he was like my savior, a shred of light I hoped could help me get away somehow. He actually did. That's why I miss him so much. He was my baby. People think I should forget about him. They actually think I have forgotten about him. But I haven't. Because I can't. He was my baby and I miss him so badly. I wish I could have seen him grow a bit. Even taken some more pictures of him, recorded a video or something. Even though that would hurt me even more to look at. I just miss him a lot. I wish he never left me.
5. I can't make you a movie about why I'm sad because I myself don't fucking know why I'm sad.
6. Today was the first time I'm away from home during bad weather. My sister was joking about early Apocalypse and I was terrified at the real possibility of how I would likely to die alone. I guess it wouldn't matter anyway.
7. Sometimes I'd scratch my baby sister's head and forget that unlike Tum, she hates when I do that.
8. My heart will never not break at the sight of a cat.
9. In ten minutes, he singlehandedly reminded me why I fell for him and why we wouldn't have a chance.
10. I wish you know how I feel when I hear your voice and the things it does to me.
11. Every time we meet, we drift further apart.
12. Did you have nightmares? That's the only thing I want to know.
13. I lied. I also want to know if you're as miserable as I am.