Re: I'm here for youkitidebooOctober 18 2007, 15:20:13 UTC
Thanks so much for your nice email, it was such a surprise to get such a lovely response to my mad rambling :) Most of the time I am completely okay, normal and happy, but I do have very black periods, most of which are brought on by eating rubbishy food, food that I have craved and then given in to..my guilt, self hatred combined with the physical act of eating all that food just makes me see myself in a true light, that I am sad, pathetic, and worst of all fat into the bargin..my frustration in life is that all I have ever wanted is to be thin..for me, no one else..but I just don't seem to be able to get to my goal..and I hate myself for my weakness, for my total lack of achievement..I am getting married next year and I want to be skinny thin. My life is on hold until I am skinny thin. Its as simple as that. I want to be a different person..I know what I want to see in the mirror and its not me..and that is the sad truth. Thank you for being so kind and offering to help..I doubt that you can, afterall I'm not 16, but a young woman
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Hi Monika :) Yes sure its fine to add me as a friend :)xx love ur pic. its so cool! I'm trying to find the courage to post some pics of me..I think its nice to post to an actual person..lol..I'm just paranoid everyone will think I'm ugly..its hard to shake those feelings when u've felt them for so long, you know? Ilove our community because it allows us to be ourselves..no one can really judge us, because all they have to base their judgements on are our posts..I'm sure if a u guys met me u'd think I was normal..thank god our brains have a hiding place in our heads :) xx katie
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