Finally back home... things feel really weird. Had my share of crying on the way back and all since Kaleb was sorta cold hearted when I left... um Wasn't really a nice feeling. Was hard choking back tears till i was on the bus. Had my cry time and I feel little better. Well I don't know if better is the word. I feel weird. Like.... very empty. Not ( Read more... )

Lately, i've gotten my urge to play FFXI again. Takin a break from AZ and lovin it. Its fun to just enjoy the game sometimes without a worry in a world, or having to be somewhere. I'm offically going home the 28th hopefully. Still haven't done much talking about things with Jir... I just don't wanna create any problems on my last 10 days here I ( Read more... )

I think everyone should do this at least once. No matter how much it may suck. Today I went back through my journal, all the way to my first post. Reliving memories and experiences that were important enough to jot down. A lot of them i have forgotten all about it feels like. Others I really wish I could relive again, just to experience it again, ( Read more... )

well these past few months have probably been the second most unhappiest times of my life. Done nothing but sit on my ass and play FFXI. Finally realizing that i'm bored with the game. After trying to talk to Colette these past few days, I logged onto AIM and realized that i left a whole nother life behind too ( Read more... )

Never felt like this before but I feel like hes just ignoring me more and more as each day passes. I really wanna go home now. Wanna go back to working and all. I'm so impatient! Wish I could just like teleport home or something. Talking to my mom right now. and shes helpin me get outta here. since Kaleb is so stressed out and all, i'm just going ( Read more... )

I've decided... that based on the experience i have with my mom holding up her end of deals. I'm gonna go home. Shes going in for surgery next week and I just don't wanna put that on her like that. She will start out strong to begin with but i can already picture her slipping up in the long run. So instead of putting her through that, i'm just ( Read more... )

well me and my mom have been doing some talking, and well i have agreed to go back home, only if my extension of stay is not approved. If it is, then she agrees to support me for the rest of the time i'm up here. My mom has really changed a lot which is very nice. With the way Kaleb has been acting towards me lately, sometimes i wish i was back ( Read more... )

well its been a while since i posted. Lotta stuff has been happening i think. Well not really. Really debating if i wanna go back home or not. Sometimes just staying up here sucks but... i dunno more in the lines of Kaleb just not really paying attention to me at all, sometimes feels like i don't exists and thats not cool. Lately tho hes been ( Read more... )

Once again I'm bored as hell, nothing to do. Done everything at least once today that I would normally do at this time. Played WoW got to level 10 yeah!!!111 its SO FUCKING HARD OMG... lulz ( Read more... )

Not sure what to say but i am fairly miserable. Kthx bye