On the past few days/this last week...

[kitsune_prophet]

Anyone in PD knows what basically happened, so I won't ramble on and on. It makes me want to step away from my keyboard for a long while, admittedly... I want to take a break from roleplaying in PD (unless I'm invited along for some CR or something). Namely because despite logic that should prove this sentiment otherwise, I feel that unease of

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[gakurans]

i'm not any help, but i'm here for you. ♥

if you need anything, let me know. i'm on invisible all the time.

[kitsune_prophet]

I think taking the time to type this all out is a big help. Aaaand you have been a big help, in that you let me ramble and roar my frustrations at you over AIM. A lot of people have helped that way :')

You too, babe.

[kitsune_prophet]

Yeah, I know. I guess just a few parts of that have my head spinning in pure anger. Especially the fact that she tried to sic the anons on me, and the whole "kill myself" comment.

I guess the more I think on it, the more I stew. It gets me more upset the more I think on it. I only can try to find humor in this whole stupid mess to keep it from genuinely upsetting me.

[kitsune_prophet]

Yeah, I can take a wild guess - it's a common sentiment. I'm just different, I guess... I have a hard time hating anyone, no matter how they act. I'm conditioned to express disappointment more than hatred, I guess. But there's some legitimate hatred here after being attacked for saying "no". Even now, I can't find myself saying that I hate her. I feel utterly betrayed, completely abused, and entirely disgusted, but... not hate.

Yeah. It's easy to laugh when I can show the "apology" I received from her to others. Then we can laugh, at how absolutely neurotic and insincere it was.