I wanna curl up in someone's lap and cry. I want someone to be there for me but I'm too scared to open up to anyone other than Jon. It never turns into anything good.
Sometimes...
anonymous
April 19 2004, 22:17:07 UTC
It's good to be able to curl up and cry. It's amazing how it helps to purify emotions, and just help us to feel better. I'm not even sure why, but it does.
I hope that you have somebody there to hold you close, and tell you that everything is okay. I'll be around through the day, if you feel safe enough to share the upsets with me.
We all adore you, and even if we're not right there to physically embrace you, our warm thoughts are soft blankets that we enjoy sharing with you, Kat.
Re: Sometimes...kitt3hk4tApril 19 2004, 23:32:35 UTC
Thanks Sterling. It really helped. The problem is that person hasn't come around yet. The person to hold me and stroke my head, give me a kiss on the forehead and say hey Kat, you're okay hasn't been there. I havn't had a person tell me they loved me and really mean it in person. Maybe Bobby. but that was only for a little while even.
There's Jon who makes me smile whenever I talk to him, but he's just..my blankey. I can't go to sleep without talking to him or else I'll get bad dreams.
And like you, you're like my pillow. You really help me out. You make me feel happy inside.
and I mean, I've got friends who love me and stuff, but I really want someone to hold me close. I want someone who can make me smile. Someone who knows me, who loves me for who I am.
and know I'm getting all cracked out and relationshipness on you.
Reminds me of storm clouds...
anonymous
April 20 2004, 01:19:04 UTC
Although that might be because we've had majestic clouds looming on the horizon, and gradually growing larger, and heavier... Rain just started falling sporadically, too. I think it's more than that, though. Something about the lighter planes leading onto the heavy, dark plateaus; or maybe it's how you feel right now?
It's really comforting to have a pillar, who is available to build you up, and support you. Somebody who embraces and celebrates you, rather than criticize, or attempt to change you. Sometimes it seems like that's needed because parents aren't giving you what you need...
That reminds me of some philosophical discussion I'd love to take up with you on a brighter day, but it can wait.
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I hope that you have somebody there to hold you close, and tell you that everything is okay. I'll be around through the day, if you feel safe enough to share the upsets with me.
We all adore you, and even if we're not right there to physically embrace you, our warm thoughts are soft blankets that we enjoy sharing with you, Kat.
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There's Jon who makes me smile whenever I talk to him, but he's just..my blankey. I can't go to sleep without talking to him or else I'll get bad dreams.
And like you, you're like my pillow. You really help me out. You make me feel happy inside.
and I mean, I've got friends who love me and stuff, but I really want someone to hold me close. I want someone who can make me smile. Someone who knows me, who loves me for who I am.
and know I'm getting all cracked out and relationshipness on you.
Mmm..I miss you. ;_;
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It's really comforting to have a pillar, who is available to build you up, and support you. Somebody who embraces and celebrates you, rather than criticize, or attempt to change you. Sometimes it seems like that's needed because parents aren't giving you what you need...
That reminds me of some philosophical discussion I'd love to take up with you on a brighter day, but it can wait.
I'll catch up with you soon.
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~Casey (the one with the black furry tail)
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