callin' it quits

May 01, 2011 21:24

To my two beloved friends (aka the only two people who read my LJ ( Read more... )

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darkregrets May 2 2011, 04:29:27 UTC
I'll start off by saying something that you KNOW I will say Kitteh, because we've known each other for ages: DO NOT SCRAP YOUR CHARACTERS. I will always be there to say that, and I will always be here to say that you need to believe in yourself and your ideas. If I have to be I will be that Yugioh friendship speaker, so help me God ( ... )

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yj_nen May 2 2011, 17:56:20 UTC
Also, just to reaffirm this: you are SO far from being a terrible friend! You have no idea how much your comments on things I've posted have helped me because you notice things I just don't, and I NEED that. Plus just talking to you more in general, you're such a great person to banter ideas with that I'm so happy to call you my friend. I suffer with self-esteem issues as well sometimes, so I can relate, and if you ever need to talk about that you know how to reach me.

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darkregrets May 2 2011, 04:29:43 UTC
I love your work, and I love your writing. Yumi helped create Artemis. She helped create their children, their humour, and their humanity. I won't let you abandon your creativity because as a friend I just care too damn much about you and your work ( ... )

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kitteh303 May 2 2011, 04:41:10 UTC
I'm dreadfully tired and trying to hold back tears, so this response will be initially brief (tomorrow I'll reply in full), but thank you.
I've been struggling with enormous self-esteem problems lately.

Every time I wrote I was trying to reach out to you and Moony. I guess I was just afraid of disappearing, it that makes any sense.

I guess she'll stil be around, but major changes will be made. The first change will have to be within myself, though. I feel like I've been an awful friend to both of you.

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darkregrets May 2 2011, 04:50:43 UTC
Get some rest Kitteh and don't blame yourself. Put everything on hold, and just sleep. Listen to music, relax...and just keep your chin up!

I'm sorry you felt like that. Just know you won't vanish - neither will your stories. I haven't been around for you as much as I'd like to, and I want to change that. If anyone should feel like an awful friend, I should. I'm sorry I didn't see your fear.

You don't see the beauty of your work. I'm not saying this because I have to: I LOVE your work. I felt sad when you stopped posting your art and your photography. You have a fan AND a friend in me, so don't devalue yourself. Make any changes you want, but do it with confidence. Strengthen your heart, take time for yourself, and THEN work on your ideas. They can wait. It's you that's most important. -hugs-

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yj_nen May 2 2011, 17:54:15 UTC
Rewind and FREEZE, chickadee. I might be repeating a lot of what Anime has already said, but that's because she's RIGHT. If you genuinely dislike how your characters turned out but still want them, y'know what you do? Revise them. We're completely open to that. Hell, I know I've retconned a TON of things about my characters. Can we recall how Kyo started out as... well... an exact replica of Kyo from Fruits Basket? Like, down-to-the-wire, even using the same picture? And just all the ridiculous shit I made up for his backstory? I KILLED HIS PARENTS IN A FIRE AND MADE HIM A MEMBER OF A GANG. WTF ME. (I still need to readdress that.) Or how Sukia was basically the creepy girl dark mage prototype (basically me emulating Suki-chan from Fruits Basket... notice a pattern?), or Reena the perpetual cheerful girl ( ... )

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kitteh303 June 24 2011, 00:14:30 UTC
I just realized I never replied to this, and I felt awful about it. x_x'

Thank you so much for your kindness and support. ^^ You and anime have been the best friends I could ever ask for.

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