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[kitten_gal]

Part of my life has been taken away and it feels like I have lost a limb. I tried to promise myself that I wouldn't get this het up about a bloke but you can't do that when it comes to your feelings or matters of the heart. Plain and simple, I miss him. I can't stand the fact that I no longer have him to cuddle up to at night, I can't cuddle him

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[martianellie]

You have nothing to be sorry for honey, you just concentrate on being happy... do whatever you can to get there - don't worry about anyone else, be selfish for a while and take time to be you and be happy and find out who you are on your own. It's really really hard but you will be a more confident, secure in yourself, able to be independant person. It'll help you for when you are ready to be with someone again. You have friends and we'll do anything we can to make it easier for you. *so so many hugs*

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[kitten_gal]

Thank you for your post hun. I really appreciate all that you've done for me. I do need time to myself and I'm sure things will get better but it's just so hard to do when I'm faced with seeing him practically every day. People are still coming up to me and asking "why the long face", and having to explain again and again that I'm no longer with him keeps dragging me down. I didn't cry for the first time today, when seeing him, and he asked me if I wanted to go for a drink soon and chat. I said that i'll see how I feel but I just desperatly want to fall into his arms again, which I know I shouldn't do.
Anyway (kinda steering away from the point now) thank you once again for helping me through this.

Hugs back attcha
Samii
xx

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[martianellie]

honey anytime really, I'm so impressed at how well you're coping. I know it's horrible - especially at this stage when it's all gossipy and awkward. I was much more rubbish than you - I didn't even tell my mum for a week and a half! I kinda figured that if no-one knew it wasn't quite real so to me it seems you're being absolutely phenomenal. Of course you miss him but it's so good that you seem to realise that maybe being together isn't for the best and realising that is a huge step to accepting it. The only thing I can promise is that it does get easier and I'll be here for you all the way (and I'm sure loads of others will be too!) *hugs*

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[martianellie]

Also John does seem really keen not to make the same mistakes that me and him did so I'm sure he'll make an effort to keep things easy and friendly for you both which is awesome - I wish we could have done that, then we wouldn't have wasted the better part of a year of friendship. I really really hope you'll be able to be okay. just make sure you take things at your pace and don't put too much pressure on yourself to be fine straightaway. Oh and finally (god I can talk for ages!) don't worry if you and John aren't or don't seem to recover at the same rate. You're different people and express yourselves differently. Just because someone seems fine doesn't mean they are and if someone seems to be having it tough it only means they're dealing with their pain in one big chunk!

More hugs!

Ellie Copter