okk how flippin stupid NOBODY writes in this any more i think imma just delete it...eh its alright though...im happy...ish but right now the good is way over weighing the bad...:)

whoa im so tired and hungry i got so high yesterday...i went against my rule wit mark...so i feel kinda bad...oh well ill make it up to him...not much else to day so yea bye!!

y do i have to rely on one certain person to make myself happy?? its like every little thing effects me that he does and if he messes up no matter how little i get so mad and hurt...i dont wanna love him anymore it hurts so much to love him and its so stupid bc i dont want to change him but it drives me nuts that he doesnt think about ignoring me ( Read more... )

ppl seriously suck...i mean its not my fuckin fault that a guy wants to go out wit a different fuckin girl...and i couldnt hav helped if i knew a breakup was gonna happen...i couldnt hav forced the person to stay in that fuckin relationship and im SICK AND TIRED OF PPL NOT FUCKIN LISTENING TO ME ( Read more... )

so im now officially home steven is officially movin out and social security may also be involved...urm yea shit happens...i want to make something out of duct tape now i made a book cover yesterday...but yea i gonna go now ttys love u all bye!!

so last night was yet another interesting time...steven called brian asked him to come over so he came got his spare key to his car then took us out to dinner...well when we got home mom was there wit a cop so steven told the WHOLE FUCKIN TRUTH even the parts where he could hav left out...and he kept saying we all talked to him...which was a lie ( Read more... )

so yea today was a bad day for me...it felt like all the teachers where ignoring me and then i felt like mark was ignoring me...like during third when i tryed talking to him he would turn around and talk to ariel or talk over me when i was talking...then he would always walk in front of me...like i kno he needs to talk to other ppl but when he ( Read more... )

hey so i started school like two days ago...its been fun im kinda annoyed at lindsey and hope to hell she isnt gettin third off bc that is time for me and mark not me her and mark...eh speakin of him he needs to get on bc well...steven wants the computer b4 we go to bed...im like kinda tired right now hope i can go to bed earlier than i have for ( Read more... )

i dunno what is wrong with me...im likecrying right now and i dont kno why...i was all happy go lucky today in the morning then i got bored...and all of a sudden i got REALLY REALLY pissy and easily annoyed and snippy...then i got happy again and then all of a sudden HEY im crying and really needing to talk to somebody i think marks mom took away ( Read more... )

i miss mark so bad right now im gonna like die...i just got asked out by my old fuck buddy and now i feel dirty so i really need to be wit the person my heart belongs to...damn y does everything i say sound so damn cheesy?? eh oh well u guys get the point...even worse hes goin to my damn school...i hope he doesnt hav my off period...that would suck ( Read more... )