Gak and a half.
I just trudged through uncharted territory and it soooooo wasn't pretty.
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It was sad and disturbing to read those painful memories of utter disappointment and empty promises. Not much has changed there, sad to say but at least it's kind of funny now. Kind of. I have solace now knowing what was then is over and what is now is perfectly different and blissful.
I hope you (the reader) aren't too crushed to see that all of the posts are only visible to certain people. [Most of which have deleted and purged their accounts]. But hey, they're accounts are up for grabs!
On a very positive note, in the comments of the most wretched and saddest stories, there were always friends and loved ones who said the most comforting and honest words to me. Yes, under the rubble of F-bombs and words depicting me stamping my feet about life and its messy unfairness, were uplifting words of encouragement, stirring up strength that I have obviously used to be able to write this post today - in such drastically better light and happiness.
I miss those friends. We've mostly moved into different directions. The bonds, once so tight and solid are loose and some even nonexistent. That's the thing with life, everyone has their own paths to take and the distance either becomes shorter or very far off.
About today:
Caden was in a spelling bee for the county. I guess they have individual bees in their classrooms at his school and the top 2 then move on to compete in a bee for the entire school (4th-8th grades). He placed 4th at his school and so he and 4 others competed in the neighboring town today. There were about 60 kids there- he was eliminated in the second round with like, 15 kids left. I know he could have done better but their PA system was AWFUL. He didn't hear the woman say the word and spelled it out completely confused. -Condolences-
Nonetheless, I'm beyond proud of him. But again, I'm rambling and public forum doesn't deserve to know the goings on of my kids.
Happy Valentines Day!