-
Not Sleeping
It's after 1 in the mornng. should have been asleep over an hour ago. I' ruminating. This Peer Specialist thing is driving e up the wall. Found out today that the three week course is pretty much the norm and that it should prepare me just fine for the job. "The best training is one-the-job training ( Read more... ) -
Being Crazy Doesn't Mean You're Stupid
The Theatre Shooting Trial began today. You know, the one where the guy shot up a theatre the night of a Batman premiere. At my local theatre. I was not there by the skin of my teeth that night. Because I didn't want to go see the movie alone. But anyway, he shot up the theatre, he got caught leaving the theatre (if I remember correctly). He ( Read more... ) -
There's a Thought of a Different Color! Also, Stark Terror
I have these thoughts. They come and go, often full-fledged. I often wonder if they are any good. I don't think I ever used to wonder if my thoughts were any good, I think I just assumed they were. Now I want some kind of outside validation that my thoughts are any good at all, some kind of cosmic buzzer to say, YES! or DEAR GOD NO! Maybe I ( Read more... ) -
First Drunk Post of 2015!
I'm at a loss what to tell you. I've been away for so long. Maybe just a recap of the past two days. It'll help you know why I'm drunk ( Read more... ) -
The Prodigal Daughter Hath Returned!
So, I've been away from LiveJournal for what, 4-5 years now? It seems like it might be time to come back. I could use some processing these days. And rereading some of my old entries made me realize this place was good for me once, maybe it can be good for me again ( Read more... ) -
A Letter to My Daughter on Her Sixteenth Birthday
Dear Rebecca ( Read more... ) -
Oh Dear God
I'm pretty sure I insulted the religion of someone I want to be friends with tonight. This would be bad. I still think I'm right. Oh, and I also sent Bill an email. That's probably also bad; although much earlier in the delusion (or inebriation, you decide). Tomorrow might be a really bad day for me ( Read more... ) -
The Journal Entry I Really Don't Want to Write
I'm not even sure I can write what I should write, but the gist is this ( Read more... ) -
Hmmm...I Feel Emo, Where Can I Vent?
Oh, look! It's LiveJournal! Where else can one can endlessly about how emo they feel ( Read more... ) -
Nightmares
I'm having terrible nightmares. I don't remember most of them, but they always end up the same. People are screaming at me. Like right up in my face, two inches away, spittle flying, trying to strike terror into my heart screaming at me. And it's never words, just pure animal hate pouring out of them. Every time it's a different person. Every ( Read more... )