Pissed.

[kittyblue]

I've been in a weird mood lately. It's like I'm not really grumpy, but I'm not really happy, either. I don't know if it's the lull before the storm at work (until we get final numbers, etc, my portion of the renewal projects are in a holding pattern, so my days are noticeably SLOW and it's unnerving and strange when everyone around me is rushing

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[silvercat17]

Amen.

[kittyblue]

I have yet to take a self-defense course (sadly, I only think of it when something sets my alarm bells off or I'm too busy with prior commitments to actually go to one), but lately, the idea of getting my aggression out on someone padded up heavily and still learning something useful is sounding better and better.

[kittyblue]

Just googled up for local hits and there's one that offers an 8-week course only a few blocks from my office. (For $200. Ouch.) Hm. I do like the idea behind it, though - there is an immediate problem and challenge to my safety that needs to be addressed, and there will not be time to stop and make nice before or after.

(I usually have a problem with people not respecting my boundaries because I default to being polite and quiet when startled or upset. It's a habit worth breaking, sometimes. Ugh.)

[naamah_darling]

Fucking A.

Creepitude is not reduced by attractiveness -- not if you are really aware of the possibility of danger. Beauty can fool one into thinking there IS no danger for a time, but it doesn't make it tolerable once you have come to that realization -- and if you're dealing with someone really beautiful, that realization may come too late.

[brimmins]

When intelligent people express that mindset in front of me, I get this nightmare feeling, like I'm trapped in an alternate universe that seemed fine on the surface but is actually hell. Then I realize that that's just how it is. It fucks me up for days. I used to get crazy shit like that from my mum and gran back when I was kind of dating that one guy. They became these fucking sappy mindless idiots, just because he was Good Looking and So Nice. And because this idiot was attracted to me and I wasn't just spontaneously attracted back, I was "afraid of intimacy". It was the most surreal and terrifying thing to realize what was expected of me.

I am this pissed off and I didn't even read the linked post yet.

[songblaze]

Well said.

It scares the bejeesus out of me how many people think that attractive men don't push unwanted advances on women. To be perfectly honest, I think I've had more trouble with them than with more homely looking people!