Quick Update
Book progress has slowed down. So close yet so far away. Its always hard to think, the end. But I must think, the end of one story and the start of the next. I've been picking all my doodles, sketches and drawings for the Space Adventure and placed them all together.
Getting a little less stressed but still having problems with it. My parents will be leaving on saturday to live in Tusan, AZ for 18months. This is good and bad. I had all hopes that when my parents returns, that I would be able to save money with food bill and pay off my convention trips. Sadly, my food and sanity bill went up. I had to deal with Aaron on visits (who doesn't visit any more do to reasons that are complcated and not worth my time to type out.) But when he visited with his kids, I would have to leave the house all day, so gass money to get anywhere to hand out, and going out for food is coastly, more over when you can't really stand fast food. Also with my mom home, she did all the cooking and cleaning. Making me feel really usless at home. I mean, she is great person and I love her and she has nothing else to do but to killed me emoutional. This past holiday season was my worst one I've ever had. My parents got sick, so I took care of them but I was also busy with work. The kids over news years, and they in now way make me feel better, they also make me feel usless and just some evil worthless aunt. I don't think they mean too but its really gets me when my mom does all the cleaning and gets ride of all the rules I had set out for them. I in turned took all my Wii games away after coming home many times from work only to come home to noise kids who had made the house a mess. -Yes, mean little aunt as I am.- Don't get me wrong, I'd love to do things for them but they are like their mom and never so thanks for going out of my own way to do stuff for them. This is a good cause why I don't want a family on of my own. And don't start preaching "well its different when they are your own." Oh, I could choke the next person who says that to me. -_- Wow, that became a rant. Oh, and I was cutting back on my sunkist/soda at the start of the year. The holiday's really drove me to drink a lot and its not good for me. If I place myself on Diet, I don't drink very much. (like, not even a full can.) Only thing, I get diet soda and my dad drinks WAY to much of it. My dad can't diet. I don't think I will have him much more. (Another stress) So I have to hid my soda's in my car and so forth, it hasn't worked to much. So today I just broke down and got myself some 2-litter bottels of regular and said hell with it. But at least with me in charge of food now, junk and candy aren't going to be over kill at my house. Goodness, my mom and her sweet tooth and love of onions. Yes, I've lost weight because that is the almost only things to eat around the house and I don't want it.
So all truth, I really need to move out after my parents have returned. Sadly, I can't support myself. ;_; I haven't gone to college, I can't afford to go. I know, I know, grants and loads but its so scary when I hear so MANY people who now are graduated and there are no jobs for them. I never told my parents one of the big reason I didn't go to college was because I didn't want to ask for money to go. Two of my four brothers were getting support from my brother to support there families. Sadly now, both those brothers are devorced from there selfish wives. But there exs still take all my brothers working money. So my parents still send what little money they can spare from there hard earn retirements to help them. Well, one brother lives at home and doesn't need any money, just a home and the other one, if to move home I would move out. (I can't stand him.) And deep in my heart, I still want to do art as my job. I would love fashion or graphic deisgn or animation. But I just can't afford schooling. So I'm tring the best I know how to keep my crappy little job of $8 an hour, part time, take care of a home while my parents and try to finch my dream of publishing my stories and art.
In truth, cosplay has helped and hurt me in this quest. Though going to cons I have traveled and meet new people. I have grown to love cloths but not main stream fashion. I've never been into the norm but I do like to see well made cloths. My mom at a coture fashion books for me for christmas and I totally want to use it to inspire new outfits and use tecnics into new garments. No, I don't want to leave my cosplay friends I've made over the years and it sucks that last fanime I final got to meet and know some people I've been dreaming of working with but because of the coast of everything going around me, cons are not an opitions. My close friends know I was going to be on hiatus of cosplay back in 09, but all the suddon I would find myself volunteering to drive Melissa (garent) to a con and that why being with her and improving my own work. But soon it was no longer fun come 2010 Expo where we squized 5 people into my car plus sewing machines and set peices. Does not work for a honda civic, let me tell you. 2010 cons where I think really killed me. Anime LA (plane ticket two weeks before the con) Fannatiku, Anime Kagi (where I locked my keys in my trunk, and left earler then wanted because we really could not afford another hotel night), Anime Expo (where I was the only one with a credit card and people giving me cash to pay for it but then I was stupid and bought a lolita dress.) and then Anime banzai that for once didn't spend a penny, only gas money to get up to Layton. 2010 killed me finachal but I wanted to do Fanime SO BAD but it also kind of killed the pocket book because I haven't cought up from 2010 and emoutional I want just having a hard time. I made great friends and totally enjoyed being with my roomies I would LOVE to go again but I don't think was fair to me to come home with such emoutions and miss my brother (whom I enjoy) visit from England and almost have a complet emoitional break down. (Sad news is one of my few swag items, pictures with Mel in the picture both is missing at the moment. ;_;) Fannatiku.. all I remember is a really bad skit and spending good time at our hotel in the spa. O.o Anime Banzai, I was givin a free badge so it was good to meet Elf Quest artist and see my local friends. Doing a last mintune darla dimple costume and being lame on stage. (getting a cute Ranka figure.) So this year leaves me with a bunch of bills and feeling of not being able to get away from them. I would love to sell some of my costumes I have no interest in wearing again but one, I'm a very odd size and two, truth be told, I don't want to deal with the cosplay community. Individials are cool but the community, gah. Its even worst when you invole money. I did get the fabric to do Lady Amalthea from Last Unicorn. Of chorse, me, being me I'm doing an orginal design and not the movie version. Its a dream costume and the last thing is to make the perfect dress but it looking ugly on me because it wasn't fit to my body style. (I'm an hourglass figure and the unicorn is a stick.) Cheak out my picture collection on pintrest.http://pinterest.com/katiehobbit/lady-amalthea-project-last-unicorn/ I would love to do this in the summer up provo canyon but knowing me, this will get started this year and might be done in a couple of years. Small lady took 3 years and Princess CCS took a year. And the thing is, I need a wig and that is my major coast. And I just can't really get myself to want to spend a penny more into costumes/cosplay till 1-bills or paid or 2- costumes sell. I'm not going to hold my breath.
SOoooooo, goals for me this year are as follows. (none in a really a order)
1 - Finch the space adventure 101 and publish is. (I don't care it its just Lulu, it counts. And I can F'in do it)
2 - Final paint and have my own deisgned room. (Yes, I have NEVER gotten to really design my room. I just kind of got stuck with what was there or what my mom wanted. Its a dream of mine)
3 - Get my credit card under 1,000 dollers.
4 - Get back into drawing, I am picking up RPG-Girls again.
5 - Go to Lagoon with friends.
6 - Shoot Super Sailor Chibi Usa scene I got like, 3 pictures....-_-
Hopes
1 - Disneyland halloween (I have requested Oct. 1-3 off for some type of vaction, I will get more if I know I can go. Much achive goal 3.)
2 - Lady Amalthia costume done and photoshot
3 - Go to Fanime (If I achive goal goal 3 before may, don't hold your breath.)
Getting a little less stressed but still having problems with it. My parents will be leaving on saturday to live in Tusan, AZ for 18months. This is good and bad. I had all hopes that when my parents returns, that I would be able to save money with food bill and pay off my convention trips. Sadly, my food and sanity bill went up. I had to deal with Aaron on visits (who doesn't visit any more do to reasons that are complcated and not worth my time to type out.) But when he visited with his kids, I would have to leave the house all day, so gass money to get anywhere to hand out, and going out for food is coastly, more over when you can't really stand fast food. Also with my mom home, she did all the cooking and cleaning. Making me feel really usless at home. I mean, she is great person and I love her and she has nothing else to do but to killed me emoutional. This past holiday season was my worst one I've ever had. My parents got sick, so I took care of them but I was also busy with work. The kids over news years, and they in now way make me feel better, they also make me feel usless and just some evil worthless aunt. I don't think they mean too but its really gets me when my mom does all the cleaning and gets ride of all the rules I had set out for them. I in turned took all my Wii games away after coming home many times from work only to come home to noise kids who had made the house a mess. -Yes, mean little aunt as I am.- Don't get me wrong, I'd love to do things for them but they are like their mom and never so thanks for going out of my own way to do stuff for them. This is a good cause why I don't want a family on of my own. And don't start preaching "well its different when they are your own." Oh, I could choke the next person who says that to me. -_- Wow, that became a rant. Oh, and I was cutting back on my sunkist/soda at the start of the year. The holiday's really drove me to drink a lot and its not good for me. If I place myself on Diet, I don't drink very much. (like, not even a full can.) Only thing, I get diet soda and my dad drinks WAY to much of it. My dad can't diet. I don't think I will have him much more. (Another stress) So I have to hid my soda's in my car and so forth, it hasn't worked to much. So today I just broke down and got myself some 2-litter bottels of regular and said hell with it. But at least with me in charge of food now, junk and candy aren't going to be over kill at my house. Goodness, my mom and her sweet tooth and love of onions. Yes, I've lost weight because that is the almost only things to eat around the house and I don't want it.
So all truth, I really need to move out after my parents have returned. Sadly, I can't support myself. ;_; I haven't gone to college, I can't afford to go. I know, I know, grants and loads but its so scary when I hear so MANY people who now are graduated and there are no jobs for them. I never told my parents one of the big reason I didn't go to college was because I didn't want to ask for money to go. Two of my four brothers were getting support from my brother to support there families. Sadly now, both those brothers are devorced from there selfish wives. But there exs still take all my brothers working money. So my parents still send what little money they can spare from there hard earn retirements to help them. Well, one brother lives at home and doesn't need any money, just a home and the other one, if to move home I would move out. (I can't stand him.) And deep in my heart, I still want to do art as my job. I would love fashion or graphic deisgn or animation. But I just can't afford schooling. So I'm tring the best I know how to keep my crappy little job of $8 an hour, part time, take care of a home while my parents and try to finch my dream of publishing my stories and art.
In truth, cosplay has helped and hurt me in this quest. Though going to cons I have traveled and meet new people. I have grown to love cloths but not main stream fashion. I've never been into the norm but I do like to see well made cloths. My mom at a coture fashion books for me for christmas and I totally want to use it to inspire new outfits and use tecnics into new garments. No, I don't want to leave my cosplay friends I've made over the years and it sucks that last fanime I final got to meet and know some people I've been dreaming of working with but because of the coast of everything going around me, cons are not an opitions. My close friends know I was going to be on hiatus of cosplay back in 09, but all the suddon I would find myself volunteering to drive Melissa (garent) to a con and that why being with her and improving my own work. But soon it was no longer fun come 2010 Expo where we squized 5 people into my car plus sewing machines and set peices. Does not work for a honda civic, let me tell you. 2010 cons where I think really killed me. Anime LA (plane ticket two weeks before the con) Fannatiku, Anime Kagi (where I locked my keys in my trunk, and left earler then wanted because we really could not afford another hotel night), Anime Expo (where I was the only one with a credit card and people giving me cash to pay for it but then I was stupid and bought a lolita dress.) and then Anime banzai that for once didn't spend a penny, only gas money to get up to Layton. 2010 killed me finachal but I wanted to do Fanime SO BAD but it also kind of killed the pocket book because I haven't cought up from 2010 and emoutional I want just having a hard time. I made great friends and totally enjoyed being with my roomies I would LOVE to go again but I don't think was fair to me to come home with such emoutions and miss my brother (whom I enjoy) visit from England and almost have a complet emoitional break down. (Sad news is one of my few swag items, pictures with Mel in the picture both is missing at the moment. ;_;) Fannatiku.. all I remember is a really bad skit and spending good time at our hotel in the spa. O.o Anime Banzai, I was givin a free badge so it was good to meet Elf Quest artist and see my local friends. Doing a last mintune darla dimple costume and being lame on stage. (getting a cute Ranka figure.) So this year leaves me with a bunch of bills and feeling of not being able to get away from them. I would love to sell some of my costumes I have no interest in wearing again but one, I'm a very odd size and two, truth be told, I don't want to deal with the cosplay community. Individials are cool but the community, gah. Its even worst when you invole money. I did get the fabric to do Lady Amalthea from Last Unicorn. Of chorse, me, being me I'm doing an orginal design and not the movie version. Its a dream costume and the last thing is to make the perfect dress but it looking ugly on me because it wasn't fit to my body style. (I'm an hourglass figure and the unicorn is a stick.) Cheak out my picture collection on pintrest.http://pinterest.com/katiehobbit/lady-amalthea-project-last-unicorn/ I would love to do this in the summer up provo canyon but knowing me, this will get started this year and might be done in a couple of years. Small lady took 3 years and Princess CCS took a year. And the thing is, I need a wig and that is my major coast. And I just can't really get myself to want to spend a penny more into costumes/cosplay till 1-bills or paid or 2- costumes sell. I'm not going to hold my breath.
SOoooooo, goals for me this year are as follows. (none in a really a order)
1 - Finch the space adventure 101 and publish is. (I don't care it its just Lulu, it counts. And I can F'in do it)
2 - Final paint and have my own deisgned room. (Yes, I have NEVER gotten to really design my room. I just kind of got stuck with what was there or what my mom wanted. Its a dream of mine)
3 - Get my credit card under 1,000 dollers.
4 - Get back into drawing, I am picking up RPG-Girls again.
5 - Go to Lagoon with friends.
6 - Shoot Super Sailor Chibi Usa scene I got like, 3 pictures....-_-
Hopes
1 - Disneyland halloween (I have requested Oct. 1-3 off for some type of vaction, I will get more if I know I can go. Much achive goal 3.)
2 - Lady Amalthia costume done and photoshot
3 - Go to Fanime (If I achive goal goal 3 before may, don't hold your breath.)