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i feel trapped some days.
like i have no privacy and matt doesn't trust me.
he'll go through my phone sometimes when i'm not around and ask me about things like "what's that mean?"
or watch me like an over protective mom whenever he's home and i go online for a second.
we broke up 3 times this weekend, but figured it all out.
i won't let my anger get the best of me, but then yesterday he got jealous over something.
and all i could do was cry. i feel like he doesn't trust me. i just feel drained that he's always saying "who's that guy? he wants to have sex with you"
wtf?
ahck. we're working on it. we're working on it.
i love him, but relationships are HARD work.
i've never been through anything like this; it's just taking some getting used to.
i wasn't much of a serious dater before him. i liked 39028403 people at once and was in love with every single one of them.
so just going from that to only wanting him and not talking to any boys...then the jealousy problem; it's toughhh stuff.
ANYWAYS.
haha. i love this music video.
also, i added all these fashion things on lj.
WTF?
why are they for only anorexic people?
MY BOOBS WOULDN'T EVEN FIT IN ONE OF THE TEES.
they're so cute. i just want them, but i could never fit in them.
arghhh.
like i have no privacy and matt doesn't trust me.
he'll go through my phone sometimes when i'm not around and ask me about things like "what's that mean?"
or watch me like an over protective mom whenever he's home and i go online for a second.
we broke up 3 times this weekend, but figured it all out.
i won't let my anger get the best of me, but then yesterday he got jealous over something.
and all i could do was cry. i feel like he doesn't trust me. i just feel drained that he's always saying "who's that guy? he wants to have sex with you"
wtf?
ahck. we're working on it. we're working on it.
i love him, but relationships are HARD work.
i've never been through anything like this; it's just taking some getting used to.
i wasn't much of a serious dater before him. i liked 39028403 people at once and was in love with every single one of them.
so just going from that to only wanting him and not talking to any boys...then the jealousy problem; it's toughhh stuff.
ANYWAYS.
haha. i love this music video.
Click to viewalso, i added all these fashion things on lj.
WTF?
why are they for only anorexic people?
MY BOOBS WOULDN'T EVEN FIT IN ONE OF THE TEES.
they're so cute. i just want them, but i could never fit in them.
arghhh.