its over

i feel like everything i did was pointless, useless, 2.5 years down the drain, i feel stupid and unlovable, broken, i dunno.... i just feel like im all wrong and i dunno how to be right

i want to stop feeling

i want to go home and sit in the barn with kiera or curl up on my bed with sita and just let it all out... instead of crying

i need a break.

i HATE working with stupid people ( Read more... )

after a week or so of no internet, its finally working, thanks to matt ( Read more... )

tyson's baby, ariat, died today. she started crashing this morning. i held her head in my lap as we put her to sleep... i have never, ever put this much love, effort and time into one baby. and it hurts. a week of sleepless nights and nursing every one or two hours will make you fall head over heels for any baby, but she was extra special... she's ( Read more... )

this morning we took tyson to the vet school to have an emergency c-section..... she didn't make it

my heart is broken and i have never hurt this much

i loved that mare so much

buttery nipples have overcome my desire to finish my physics hwk. and i can't figure this stuff out anywayz. therefore, i don't care.

its been one of those days where you leave yourself wide open and get your feelings hurt. yup. lovely ( Read more... )

today i:

+got a 75 on my physics test :D
-fell off a horse
+landed on one foot and stayed standing when i fell off the horse
+got clancy, the puppy im fostering :D
+ate the rest of my chocolate cookies
+found most of the msds sheets i was missing in the lab
+asked amy to go to durham w/ me tmrw to eat dinner w/ my dad and she said yes :D

yesterday day sucked b/c there was an accident at the barn and then everything else seemed to go wrong after that.... yesterday night was good b/c i got to spend time with someone special tehe... we had fun ( Read more... )