[Fic] If My Life Was A Drama
Title : If My Life was a Drama
Author : kiyazawa
Pairing : Yunjae (Yunho-centric)
Genre : a tiny lil bit of angst
Rating : PG
Length : Drabble
Warning : unrequited love
Summary : If his life was a drama? What would he become?
Sometimes I wonder,,
If my life was a drama…
What would I become?
**
Tonight dinner is one of the awaiting night for me. Why? Because I could have a reason to meet him. Yes, him.
Kim Jaejoong.
He is my chilhood friend, we have been friends since junior high. He is my best friend. Best friend. Actually I don’t like those words so much, especially when I have to introduce him to my friends as my ‘best friends’ i have to swallow that word bitterly in my tongue. Yeah, we are just best friend.
Oh how I wish I could change that word to ‘boyfriend’.
And like the other dinner, we talk so much since we haven’t meet in a while. Our usual talk about him and his life, me and my life. And of course about our love life. That’s the bitter part to talk about (laugh).
Usually he will talk about his current boyfriend or his -so many- flirt target or his ‘bunch’ of ex and the story about why he ended up their relationship. This kind of talk is one of our agenda to be talking about. About why he broke up with his previous boyfriend, how he actually got his current lover, or about who was the one he flirted, and so on. And I will just be a good friends who heard about all his complain and story of his love life.
When it comes to my turn. I would just smile and say, I still have noone. And then he will start lecturing me about not being all quite and shy when it comes to this matter. That I should have get a lover like he does. And I will just give him anoother smile, bitter smile that send a bitter taste in my throat.
If you know that I just want you…
**
I would like to be the main character of the drama…
All suffered and hurt in the beginning
But then get a good luck in the end and live happily ever after with the one I love…
**
It’s not that noone ever ask me out. But I just don’t think that I can be with anyone else when my heart always goes to him.
It’s not that I never tried to forget him. It’s just that every time I tried to erase him from my mind, he aways comes again in my life.
When I started to forget him, suddenly he would come to my house and threw his most gorgeous smile in front of me. When I started to erase him from my mind, his sudden call makes me remember him again. When I started to throw my feelings away, his sudden text makes my heart beats for him again.
Sometimes I wonder, why is this happen to me? Why God won’t let me forget, erase, and throw my feelings away from him? Why he always has to come in my life?
Just like now, when there’s someone who loves me with all his heart come to me, and I think I might give this a chance. He comes again, shattering my peace world for the times I couldn’t count.
And it’s still the same story, he never see me like the way I see him.
Maybe, he never will.
**
But,
I’m not the main character of the drama
I’m just a supporting character who have to sacrifice his love because the one I love has to be with the main character,
So the drama would have a happy ending…
If my life was a drama…
A/N. I think this is the worse fic i've ever write ;_____;
but i still want to write it anyway...
im posting this in the airport since my mom hasn't come to pick me up yet,, T___T
Author : kiyazawa
Pairing : Yunjae (Yunho-centric)
Genre : a tiny lil bit of angst
Rating : PG
Length : Drabble
Warning : unrequited love
Summary : If his life was a drama? What would he become?
Sometimes I wonder,,
If my life was a drama…
What would I become?
**
Tonight dinner is one of the awaiting night for me. Why? Because I could have a reason to meet him. Yes, him.
Kim Jaejoong.
He is my chilhood friend, we have been friends since junior high. He is my best friend. Best friend. Actually I don’t like those words so much, especially when I have to introduce him to my friends as my ‘best friends’ i have to swallow that word bitterly in my tongue. Yeah, we are just best friend.
Oh how I wish I could change that word to ‘boyfriend’.
And like the other dinner, we talk so much since we haven’t meet in a while. Our usual talk about him and his life, me and my life. And of course about our love life. That’s the bitter part to talk about (laugh).
Usually he will talk about his current boyfriend or his -so many- flirt target or his ‘bunch’ of ex and the story about why he ended up their relationship. This kind of talk is one of our agenda to be talking about. About why he broke up with his previous boyfriend, how he actually got his current lover, or about who was the one he flirted, and so on. And I will just be a good friends who heard about all his complain and story of his love life.
When it comes to my turn. I would just smile and say, I still have noone. And then he will start lecturing me about not being all quite and shy when it comes to this matter. That I should have get a lover like he does. And I will just give him anoother smile, bitter smile that send a bitter taste in my throat.
If you know that I just want you…
**
I would like to be the main character of the drama…
All suffered and hurt in the beginning
But then get a good luck in the end and live happily ever after with the one I love…
**
It’s not that noone ever ask me out. But I just don’t think that I can be with anyone else when my heart always goes to him.
It’s not that I never tried to forget him. It’s just that every time I tried to erase him from my mind, he aways comes again in my life.
When I started to forget him, suddenly he would come to my house and threw his most gorgeous smile in front of me. When I started to erase him from my mind, his sudden call makes me remember him again. When I started to throw my feelings away, his sudden text makes my heart beats for him again.
Sometimes I wonder, why is this happen to me? Why God won’t let me forget, erase, and throw my feelings away from him? Why he always has to come in my life?
Just like now, when there’s someone who loves me with all his heart come to me, and I think I might give this a chance. He comes again, shattering my peace world for the times I couldn’t count.
And it’s still the same story, he never see me like the way I see him.
Maybe, he never will.
**
But,
I’m not the main character of the drama
I’m just a supporting character who have to sacrifice his love because the one I love has to be with the main character,
So the drama would have a happy ending…
If my life was a drama…
A/N. I think this is the worse fic i've ever write ;_____;
but i still want to write it anyway...
im posting this in the airport since my mom hasn't come to pick me up yet,, T___T