Mental woes and stresses
I've been all out of sorts the last couple days due to my girlfriend not being around due to her play. Frankly, it's been all week, I've been sulky and angry, and had fits of tears. I was a little resentful at not being told parts of her schedule, and most likely, over reacted to all of it. Had a hashing out of things with her though, and we're all good again.
Secondly, my parents and hers have been more than a little offensive towards our relationship, saying it's not real because it's online and that it won't last. I've told my mother to stop, not that she listened at all before tonight. I guess what made her stop was when my girlfriend's dad, in response to being told she was staying up to talk to me, said 'well, you could always just get rid of her.' I burst into tears all over again, and wasn't feeling loved or wanted, despite that it was her dad and not her. Moving on though.
My mother cottoned on that I was somewhat miserable tonight and asked what was up, I explained about the week, and she again expressed her concerns that I was too introverted for my age, that I spent too much time indoors and not interacting with people. I replied that it was mostly trust issues left over from elementary school, and that I found it difficult to form lasting connections to people. She listened to me while I explained it all, and after a while, she asked if I thought counseling might do me good. I don't know. I'm reluctant to say yes because that's a lot of money to spend, and we owe money to the government right now. I'm afraid to say yes because of money and if I'll end up on meds, and I'm afraid to say no because then I might never get any of this resolved.
Secondly, my parents and hers have been more than a little offensive towards our relationship, saying it's not real because it's online and that it won't last. I've told my mother to stop, not that she listened at all before tonight. I guess what made her stop was when my girlfriend's dad, in response to being told she was staying up to talk to me, said 'well, you could always just get rid of her.' I burst into tears all over again, and wasn't feeling loved or wanted, despite that it was her dad and not her. Moving on though.
My mother cottoned on that I was somewhat miserable tonight and asked what was up, I explained about the week, and she again expressed her concerns that I was too introverted for my age, that I spent too much time indoors and not interacting with people. I replied that it was mostly trust issues left over from elementary school, and that I found it difficult to form lasting connections to people. She listened to me while I explained it all, and after a while, she asked if I thought counseling might do me good. I don't know. I'm reluctant to say yes because that's a lot of money to spend, and we owe money to the government right now. I'm afraid to say yes because of money and if I'll end up on meds, and I'm afraid to say no because then I might never get any of this resolved.