A very quiet night at work, but after the tribulations I went through to get this job Im not complaining. The longer Im around Katie, the more I appreciate what any other parent has had to go through. I also think its really time for me to get serious about getting out of Mom's house, she needs her space. Shes long been done raising me and I really ( Read more... )

Welcome to Bandit's After Hours Lounge ( Read more... )

My body is still trying to fight being on night shift. I think that the days of sleeping 8-10 hours will be scarce for a while ( Read more... )

How...did...you...get here? Nobody's supposed to be here. I've tried that love thing for the last time.
-Deborah Cox

There have been times where I have asked myself that musical question straight from the 1998 hit song :Nobody's Supposed To Be Here. How in the hell did I end up with someone that so obliterated my heart, and that I think had I not ( Read more... )

When we last left off back in 2006 I was still in Mt. Washington. I had finally given up on Erica (shes still in Kansas City and married now) I had met a school bus driver and had an up and down relationship with her. The funny thing about Dana was that I just could never bring myself to fully trust her and be in deep with her. She just kept coming ( Read more... )

Live from the late shift!!! Its the Bandit ( Read more... )

This will be a shorter post. Since I'm in a hurry. But I'm trying to get things together. I'm not in as a bad mood as I have been, but its been raining and a person could get melancholy if they weren't careful. There are certain people that I miss and there are certain people I miss but my aim is improving. I'm trying to hang in there and I have a ( Read more... )

Im not sure. My mood hasn't really improved, I'm just in this "Fuck it mentality I'm tired of scramblin' for everything. I'm thinking of rolling out, but am not real sure if that would work and havinng flow problems in another city sucks worse than anything. Things will break right for me, I hope.

My mood has gotten worse by the minute. I'm trying to be upbeat and positve, but its hard. I'm trying to put a positive spin on the world and Im having difficulty. I guess karma can come back on you. I hate feeling this way, but have no real recourse other than just hanging on and trying to get through this patch of lonliness. I have brought it on ( Read more... )

I have a mortar and bricks and I'm putting up that wall. I need to do this, why? Because I'm tired. Tired of getting fucked over all the time. I tried not to be this way. It seems that every time I let the guard down, I get run over and I'm fuckin tired of it. Do I go back to playa-playa mode??? No, I'm tired of that mess, it seems that getting the ( Read more... )