[Yama fic] Forbidden Love (Part 2)
Title: Forbidden Love
Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi and Sho had grown to be fond of each other, and tried to protect each other in their own ways. Two other princes, brothers of Satoshi, made their appearances. Are they friends or enemies?
Part 2
Satoshi
Everyone in our family seems to be eyeing on the king’s throne. But I don’t have a tiny bit of interest in it. Honestly, I don’t know what the goal of my life is, or even what I am living for. Born to this glamorous and elite family, plays the role that was assigned to me, and then bow out at some unknown point in time. But Mother was right, I could use my position to protect what and who I wanted to protect.
It’s already the third time that secret reports came in snitching that General Sakurai is plotting a rebellion against the king. The first two was interrupted by me, but the third one still made its way to my father.
“Your Majesty, Father, you have to trust the people you use. Since father kept Sho at my side, you have to believe in my abilities and judgment. I have confident that these reports are not reliable.”
“Satoshi, you know I believe in your judgment and opinion. But General Sakurai - ”
“I can bet my life on it - ”, I kneeled down without saying anymore. I know Father would comply.
I don’t know why, but I wish time will pause here and we will never grow up. Because I know that someday, someday I will need to set you free, but I don’t know if I look forward to that day, or afraid that that day will come too soon. Sometimes I am puzzled. Why do I feel satisfying just by seeing you eating happily the food that I am tired of long time ago? Why does my heart ache when I see you getting sick or hurt? May be because you’re loyal to me? It must be, every time you protect or take care of me, it’s from the loyalty deep in your bones and blood, isn’t it? There couldn’t be other reasons. I am not a likeable master. I am not even a likeable son. Cold, calculating, with hidden agenda, are just how some people around the palace thought of me.
I don’t talk to him much. I talked to others only to be perfunctory, but I don’t want to treat him the same way. In the palace, when you’re liked by the king, there will be people coming to fawn and pamper you. But if I fall in disgrace someday, the people closed to me would also suffer. Keeping a distance is for everyone’s best interest.
Four years had passed but he hasn’t changed a bit. It seems none of the intrigues in the palace affected him. Even though I kept ignoring him and not speaking with him every day, he continues to follow me, keep telling me this and that. So, he grew up in a military camp. So, he likes the food in the palace very much. So, he likes to read with me……
Seeing the cape he put on me, still has his temperature, I greedily breathe in the warmth so rarely felt in the palace. Pardon me, but I can’t let you go, not just yet. Please let me be selfish for a little longer. I still need a reason to continue breathing in this place. Many around me wanted to get rid of me. I don't know how many people were fooled by my indifferent front that I put up. And those who wanted to get rid of General Sakurai -- Sho, do you know I'm getting tired?
“Your Highness. Prince Jun invited you and Sir Sakurai to his palace for a meeting?”
I am very skeptical about bringing him to this so call meeting. This is a sensitive time and Sho is still so simple-hearted. I really don't want to bring him to any social engagement. But Jun is my younger brother and the son of Queen Matsumoto, I dare not refused his invitation without a good reason. When it comes to selecting the next king, Jun and I are the most likely candidates. Jun being the queen's son and me being the king's favorite son, are considered direct competitors. Although I have no interest in competing with him, but my existence still post a threat to him. I must be very careful on every move I made.
Masaki is also there, as expected. He is my other younger brother, but older than Jun. His mother, Concubine Aiba, died when he was little, so he was raised by the queen, Jun’s mother. It’s not surprised that he and Jun are closer than with other siblings. Besides Jun, Masaki likes to hang out with me the most. It’s ironic that his two favorite brothers are born to be rivals.
Despite the table of gourmet food and wine in front of me, I don't have a bit of appetite. But Sho seems to like them very much. He had tasted pretty much every dish on the table.
Our wine cups are still empty, but my attention stays on Jun's hand which is holding the flagon.
“I heard that Onii-san has to handle some important reports in the army yourself recently.” Jun said as he's pouring wine into our wine cups. I know he's referring to the reports about Sho's father. I smiled lightly without neglecting to notice the movements of his index finger.
“I am still learning.” I casually take the wine cup from Sho and put it near my mouth, without drinking it immediately. Quietly, I watched for Jun's reaction.....
Sho
I know a lot of people want his life. But I don't understand why they hated him so much. Is that only because of the bloody throne? Because of that cold, lonely position, I often see him, a guy who doesn't like to talk, forced himself to talk and discuss with the king, the ministers about crisis in the kingdom, ancient and present policies, even weather and geomantic omen. Many said he was born with extraordinary intelligence, reflected in his name 'Satoshi'. But that side of him was like stranger to me. I know that's not the real him. Every time he comes back to his palace, he would become very quiet, eye brows knitted and drinks one pot of strong tea after another. Whenever I saw his exhaustive look, I’d resent how much he had done for his mother. It’s definitely not worth it. Would she even appreciate all the sacrifices he made?
I remember one time when I went riding with him. The horse suddenly got scared and went out of control. I was afraid that he would get thrown off the horse if I shot it, so I just jumped in front of the horse and planned to grab the bridle with my bare hands. Not until I was kicked by the horse and hurt my ribs that I realized how audacious I was! At that moment, all I could think of was not letting him got hurt. It then made me realized, I, too, can protect him!
That horse was his favorite, but he said the horse was disloyal and had to be put down. He didn’t even think twice before making that decision. I didn’t want to worry him, so I didn’t tell him that the incident was not an accident. May be he was born with unusual mission on his shoulder and he had no choice but to make tough and harsh decisions. I, being a hostage, would one day lose my purpose here and had to leave. A glimpse of sadness ran through me with this thought.
I know he doesn’t want to take me to social events. May be he feels that I don’t have any insightful things to say. Growing up with Papa and being on his side for so many years, how could I not have any opinions? But I know my position is awkward. I don’t want to give Papa any trouble. I don’t want to give him any trouble. It’s better for me to just play the role of an accompanying guest.
I don’t like how Prince Jun looked at him, too aggressive and domineering. It’s very suffocating sometimes. Prince Masaki is also very gracious, but compared with Prince Jun, he is more pleasant. At least the smile on his face seems more genuine.
Their conversations seem to be getting more profound. I don’t understand why Prince Jun was concerned about things in the army. I was still trying to analyze the meaning of their talk, the wine cup in my hand was suddenly taken by him. Then he put his own wine cup in my hand. I don’t know the reason behind his action. We left shortly after we finished drinking. He didn’t eat much. I worried about him drinking with an empty stomach. Would he get stomach ache again?
After we were away from Prince Jun’s palace, he casually told me that there was a bug in his wine cup, but since the wine was poured by his brother, it’s impolite not to drink it…..
He hurried us to return to his palace immediately and dismissed all the servants. He asked me to summon Nino-sansei, who is his dedicated physician in the Imperial Academy of Medicine, but could not let anyone know about it. Then, after hesitating for while, asked me to stay as well when Nino-sansei comes…..
To be continued.....
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Pairing: Yama (Ohno x Sho)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, antiquity, angst, romance, friendship
Disclaimer: Purely fictional, for entertainment only
Summary: Prince Satoshi and Sho had grown to be fond of each other, and tried to protect each other in their own ways. Two other princes, brothers of Satoshi, made their appearances. Are they friends or enemies?
Part 2
Satoshi
Everyone in our family seems to be eyeing on the king’s throne. But I don’t have a tiny bit of interest in it. Honestly, I don’t know what the goal of my life is, or even what I am living for. Born to this glamorous and elite family, plays the role that was assigned to me, and then bow out at some unknown point in time. But Mother was right, I could use my position to protect what and who I wanted to protect.
It’s already the third time that secret reports came in snitching that General Sakurai is plotting a rebellion against the king. The first two was interrupted by me, but the third one still made its way to my father.
“Your Majesty, Father, you have to trust the people you use. Since father kept Sho at my side, you have to believe in my abilities and judgment. I have confident that these reports are not reliable.”
“Satoshi, you know I believe in your judgment and opinion. But General Sakurai - ”
“I can bet my life on it - ”, I kneeled down without saying anymore. I know Father would comply.
I don’t know why, but I wish time will pause here and we will never grow up. Because I know that someday, someday I will need to set you free, but I don’t know if I look forward to that day, or afraid that that day will come too soon. Sometimes I am puzzled. Why do I feel satisfying just by seeing you eating happily the food that I am tired of long time ago? Why does my heart ache when I see you getting sick or hurt? May be because you’re loyal to me? It must be, every time you protect or take care of me, it’s from the loyalty deep in your bones and blood, isn’t it? There couldn’t be other reasons. I am not a likeable master. I am not even a likeable son. Cold, calculating, with hidden agenda, are just how some people around the palace thought of me.
I don’t talk to him much. I talked to others only to be perfunctory, but I don’t want to treat him the same way. In the palace, when you’re liked by the king, there will be people coming to fawn and pamper you. But if I fall in disgrace someday, the people closed to me would also suffer. Keeping a distance is for everyone’s best interest.
Four years had passed but he hasn’t changed a bit. It seems none of the intrigues in the palace affected him. Even though I kept ignoring him and not speaking with him every day, he continues to follow me, keep telling me this and that. So, he grew up in a military camp. So, he likes the food in the palace very much. So, he likes to read with me……
Seeing the cape he put on me, still has his temperature, I greedily breathe in the warmth so rarely felt in the palace. Pardon me, but I can’t let you go, not just yet. Please let me be selfish for a little longer. I still need a reason to continue breathing in this place. Many around me wanted to get rid of me. I don't know how many people were fooled by my indifferent front that I put up. And those who wanted to get rid of General Sakurai -- Sho, do you know I'm getting tired?
“Your Highness. Prince Jun invited you and Sir Sakurai to his palace for a meeting?”
I am very skeptical about bringing him to this so call meeting. This is a sensitive time and Sho is still so simple-hearted. I really don't want to bring him to any social engagement. But Jun is my younger brother and the son of Queen Matsumoto, I dare not refused his invitation without a good reason. When it comes to selecting the next king, Jun and I are the most likely candidates. Jun being the queen's son and me being the king's favorite son, are considered direct competitors. Although I have no interest in competing with him, but my existence still post a threat to him. I must be very careful on every move I made.
Masaki is also there, as expected. He is my other younger brother, but older than Jun. His mother, Concubine Aiba, died when he was little, so he was raised by the queen, Jun’s mother. It’s not surprised that he and Jun are closer than with other siblings. Besides Jun, Masaki likes to hang out with me the most. It’s ironic that his two favorite brothers are born to be rivals.
Despite the table of gourmet food and wine in front of me, I don't have a bit of appetite. But Sho seems to like them very much. He had tasted pretty much every dish on the table.
Our wine cups are still empty, but my attention stays on Jun's hand which is holding the flagon.
“I heard that Onii-san has to handle some important reports in the army yourself recently.” Jun said as he's pouring wine into our wine cups. I know he's referring to the reports about Sho's father. I smiled lightly without neglecting to notice the movements of his index finger.
“I am still learning.” I casually take the wine cup from Sho and put it near my mouth, without drinking it immediately. Quietly, I watched for Jun's reaction.....
Sho
I know a lot of people want his life. But I don't understand why they hated him so much. Is that only because of the bloody throne? Because of that cold, lonely position, I often see him, a guy who doesn't like to talk, forced himself to talk and discuss with the king, the ministers about crisis in the kingdom, ancient and present policies, even weather and geomantic omen. Many said he was born with extraordinary intelligence, reflected in his name 'Satoshi'. But that side of him was like stranger to me. I know that's not the real him. Every time he comes back to his palace, he would become very quiet, eye brows knitted and drinks one pot of strong tea after another. Whenever I saw his exhaustive look, I’d resent how much he had done for his mother. It’s definitely not worth it. Would she even appreciate all the sacrifices he made?
I remember one time when I went riding with him. The horse suddenly got scared and went out of control. I was afraid that he would get thrown off the horse if I shot it, so I just jumped in front of the horse and planned to grab the bridle with my bare hands. Not until I was kicked by the horse and hurt my ribs that I realized how audacious I was! At that moment, all I could think of was not letting him got hurt. It then made me realized, I, too, can protect him!
That horse was his favorite, but he said the horse was disloyal and had to be put down. He didn’t even think twice before making that decision. I didn’t want to worry him, so I didn’t tell him that the incident was not an accident. May be he was born with unusual mission on his shoulder and he had no choice but to make tough and harsh decisions. I, being a hostage, would one day lose my purpose here and had to leave. A glimpse of sadness ran through me with this thought.
I know he doesn’t want to take me to social events. May be he feels that I don’t have any insightful things to say. Growing up with Papa and being on his side for so many years, how could I not have any opinions? But I know my position is awkward. I don’t want to give Papa any trouble. I don’t want to give him any trouble. It’s better for me to just play the role of an accompanying guest.
I don’t like how Prince Jun looked at him, too aggressive and domineering. It’s very suffocating sometimes. Prince Masaki is also very gracious, but compared with Prince Jun, he is more pleasant. At least the smile on his face seems more genuine.
Their conversations seem to be getting more profound. I don’t understand why Prince Jun was concerned about things in the army. I was still trying to analyze the meaning of their talk, the wine cup in my hand was suddenly taken by him. Then he put his own wine cup in my hand. I don’t know the reason behind his action. We left shortly after we finished drinking. He didn’t eat much. I worried about him drinking with an empty stomach. Would he get stomach ache again?
After we were away from Prince Jun’s palace, he casually told me that there was a bug in his wine cup, but since the wine was poured by his brother, it’s impolite not to drink it…..
He hurried us to return to his palace immediately and dismissed all the servants. He asked me to summon Nino-sansei, who is his dedicated physician in the Imperial Academy of Medicine, but could not let anyone know about it. Then, after hesitating for while, asked me to stay as well when Nino-sansei comes…..
To be continued.....
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