::*you took it back.
how could you go and do something like that?
my fingernail phase.
I ask you and I know I need to change.
change...
you took it back.
you ripped my heart of of my...
then you put it back.i'm pulling my hair ( Read more... )

School was ok. Dunit stayed after for carnation stuff for LAO. i'm home now. i have chem to make up. i have an essay to write about why i hate god :). i have mock rock practice today at 8. after i want to chill w/ michelle and possibly some other kids. saturday might be fun. we will see i guess. so far only 2 are coming. which is great. if the ( Read more... )

your hands on me, pressing hard against your jeans, your tongue in my mouth, tryin to keep the words from coming. you didnt care to know who else may have been you before. i wanna lover i dont have to love. i wanna boy whos to sad to give a fuck. hey wheres the kid with the chemicals? i thought he said to meet him here but i'm not sure. i got the ( Read more... )

Feel like every chance to leave
is another chance I should have took.
Every minute is a mile.
I've never felt so hollow.
I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles.
My secrets for a buck.
Watch me as I cut myself wide open
on this stage...

his friends are good for bang bang.

an amiable hobby.

shes got a secret...just keep it and sleep with it.

...well he hates you, hates you...and I guess thats nothing new for you.
:*(
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i told him that i did it becuz i just wanted him to care.

i should stop doing it.

becuz no one will care.

for once i ( Read more... )

blah the red eye is too smokey. it makes me nauseous. i hate the smell of smoke. im glad i dont do it.

and i feel like i'm going to throw up.

blahz. so interesting day kinda.
shane is super pissed at me... great. i am awesome ( Read more... )

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as the day goes on, im getting more and more nervous. how am i gonna handle english tomorrow ( Read more... )

i think i messed up things with shane pretty bad. yeah we talked about a lot of stuff, but thats just it. we TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING. that just makes things awkward and weird now. i dont want it to be and i wont, but he might be, which is what im afraid of. im just scared that i might of just ruined a great friendship with someone that i really ( Read more... )