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Hey Luna I hopped that if you were not to busy and had some time that maybe we could go about for a short walk around the lake or sit in a private room and talk. I am also sorry about some other things. Some of which might be my fault. Well I will see you around. take care of yourself.
I did have a talk with Luna a few days ago. Benjamin did hurt her. I could read it plain as day. I tried my best to comfort her because I care so much about her. I can't call it love, but it would be extremely close. I ended up confessing to her some fears I have. I feel that bad things will happen to me and defintly to some others by the end of this school year. Why did I tell her to love him no matter what? wasn't I supposed to make a move for myself? I mean I wan't to have her at my side as more than she is though I know that cannot be. He does love her. I see that much... I think it is because he loves her that he lied to her about something. what yet I don't know but it must be huge.I guess it is only my sense of honor and to see her happy that I did the right thing. It says that people are rewarded for doing the right thing but I see no future reward for the right thing and I am okay with this. It's just that I do desire a bit more than I have and I am afraid of so many things. Especially when I dream I see good friends of mine dying. I don't want to see her die for real. I'll do everything I can to make sure that doesn't happen, but I am very very afraid and I don't know what else to do except go about my life and hope to do everything right................................. I need some time alone agian. I think the astronomy tower would be a good place.