its been a while...well a week to be exact ( Read more... )

im getting by pretty good. kinda losing thought of jordan. we have a new person at work. his name is chris. hes pretty cool. hes kinda paranoid like me though. i have a feeling were gonna get along pretty good. keep me from thinking of jordan all the time. i dont wanna stop thinking about him but sometimes thinking about him makes me all depressed ( Read more... )

today was pretty good, yesterday was awsome too ( Read more... )

today wasnt all that bad. i stayed wiht jordan as much as i could today. every second i could be with him i was. even times i wasnt suposed to be wiht him i was. i know tomarrow wont be as good as today. jordans mom will be at school tomarrow. i started crying at work. this one guy asked if i was alright and i siad i was fine just had a bad day and ( Read more... )

i always screw up. it never fails. i dont want to lose him. i love him. its all my fault. in a way i hope kory kills me. i would do anything to escape how i feel right now. jordan is my everything. i wasnt even this bad when david left me. i cant eat, cant sleep. its a terrable sick feeling. i havnt stopped crying since i got home which was about ( Read more... )

will i say im miserable, im probably the happiest person alive. i cant get any happier. i know what brandon feels like now. fuck jack, fuck david, and fuck kory. i dont need any of them to make me happy. i never did. just had them in my head so much i thought i did..well david and kory anyways. jacks not that importnat lmao. the only people i need ( Read more... )

today has been pretty good, had work though, so that kinda made it bad ( Read more... )

made a mistake, almost wish i never told him, but i had to, he had to know, i couldnt keep a secret from him, y i keep hurting him i dont know but i do i dont deserve him. sometimes i wish we never had met becuase he would be better off. i tryed to blame it on him earlier, say hes not strict enough to were i dont know what i can and cannot do, but ( Read more... )

its not the first time things got ruined for me adn jordan. the plan WAS to hang out today, they was going to pound river and i was going to hnad out with them but i couldnt get a ride so im stuck in the house tonight. last time was when me and zach was about to date again, but suposivly a dog chased them off or somethign about a stupid dog, which ( Read more... )

at worek today i sat and thought alot. its was wierd. had a lot to think about. well alot has happend. why did i date the people i did, why did jordan come over the other night. i think of the other night and it makes me remember david. its wierd how david seems so closly related to david. they are almost exactly the same. david always coming over ( Read more... )