i'm standing at the foot of a mountain called life.. this realization is where my journey begins ( Read more... )

facing forward. trying to avoid mirrors, as they reflect back at me as i reflect back into the past. i see myself. aged. face full of emotions and the thoughts and feelings behind those frowns on my visage haunt me. causing me to erupt into thought of a future i once sought but i could have never wrought to reality. which scares me as all hauntings ( Read more... )

what am i afraid of?

i sat in a room with total strangers. young, old, all very different from me. we sat on the floor, completely huddled together to take advantage of every inch of space. a tape played. chanting and mantras, incense and statues ( Read more... )

turning 21 on friday. not so excited. bad stuff usually happens on my bday. kinna feel like im gettin sick.. prolly gonna do nothing and go home on my bday. im depressed today. one of those days i guess. i really wish i had something to look forward to. i gotta get out of this place. maybe then i'll miss it.
- but right now id rather be missing.

yea... so i tried doing my ol work out regime today.. after like... vegetating all weekend.. dint do shit but sleep yesterday.. barely ate.. worked out this morning after breakfast.. then after the work out... did cool down, stretches, curl up etc.. was really breathin hard.. took a shower.. then right after the shower, threw up all of my breakfast ( Read more... )

i slept all labor day. i wish i was taller.

well the voices in my head are gettin pretty vivid. sometimes i think i have delusions cuz i see things differently for one sec. like upon second glance what i first saw wasnt real.. or like i'll think someone standing next to me is someone else.. i must be goin crazy.. but i just say bring it on.. life is a lot more interesting at least. been ( Read more... )

these past few days have been straight, even tho i pissed saturday away to recover from thursday/friday. partyin it out these past few days, about to go to a bbq today. but friday night at ultrabar for steve's and buck's bday party was pretty tight, saw people i havent seen, got to drink at da VIP, and rented out mezanine. pretty baller. man how i' ( Read more... )

woke up freakishly today. apparently my leg cramped up.. where it usually does from soccer and stuff.. totally weird.. so im dreamin it cramps up and im like stuck in sleep paralysis until im succumb with pain. and i dream i get up and stretch it out.. but in reality i havent moved yet.. so then i actually have to wake up and stretch out my leg.. ( Read more... )