I have always been a big guy. Earlier in life I was 300 lbs of mostly muscle (22 inch bicep, calf, neck) . At that time, I possessed all the ego and arrogance that went with it. Those days have been long gone and for the past 5 years I have hovered around a "healthy" 238lbs ( Read more... )

It has been forever since I updated my journal, and, unfortunately, even longer since I have read anyone elses. My biggest shock was Cloverbee's. I found out both to what degree her father was sick and the fact that she started a bath salts business ( Read more... )

I pissed away an entire day today ( Read more... )

After several weeks of reducing my dosage, I have winged myself off of Paxil. I fear tonight will be my first trial ( Read more... )

I have always known that I have had a tendency to be independent. In almost every aspect, I have had the need to be able to do things myself. Today I hit what I think to be the extream ( Read more... )

I making an entry just to make an entry. I would write about Paxil but I think I have beaten that horse to death. I'll type about other crap that doesn't matter ( Read more... )

SSRI Discontinuation Syndrome

I'll highlight what I'm experiencing...

Neurologic symptoms include:
Dizziness
Vertigo
Lightheadedness
Difficulty walking

Somatic (bodily) complaints include:
Nausea/vomiting
Fatigue
Headaches
Insomnia

Less common difficulties:
Shock-like sensations (These are my favorites. I wish I could ( Read more... )

I'm giving up ditching the Paxil for now. Rough times tonight. Fighting massive "Sunday Night Blues". I'm in a bad place. I can not tell if I am sick or if I'm just mentally ill ( Read more... )

I ran today for the first time in months. My brain is now full of additional chemicals that make me both happy and sedate. Running on a regular basis out performs my 20mg of Paxil. I really do need to get back in that habit ( Read more... )

I'm better than 2 weeks into my "diet" and I'm down 9 pounds. Not bad. This is my last week to slack though. Next week I start trying to run again. That means that I need new shoes.

So far, dixiecheese has been the only one brave enough to wager with me on the weight loss and she didn't even ask for anything if I lost. If I make my goal, I get a new ( Read more... )