today i was finally able to ride with jessica. it was much needed, and very relaxing. it was incredibly cold out and a steady snow was falling, which resulted in first numb-then very painful-blocks of ice which were actually our feet. it was kind of pretty and romantic, though, with white everywhere and the snow coming down gently. i had a silly, ( Read more... )

new years resolution:
dont care about anything. make it all be like water off a duck's back.

so this is the new year

all i have are hopes and wishes
that are probably going to be smashed to smithereens.

i don't know how you feel ( Read more... )

i'll call you to see if you're sleeping;
if you're sleeping are you dreaming of me?
days go quickly by;
years they multiply.
i can't remember all the times i tried to tell myself
to hold on to these moments as they pass.

it's been a long december and there's reason to believe
maybe this year will be better than the last.

"i am in the habit of looking not so much to the nature of a gift as to the spirit in which it is offered."

christmas was nice; better than i expected, but still not what it used to be. i think i would like to experience christmas as a six year old once more.

technically its christmas, but it really doenst feel like it at all, and i am about to go to bed. i had an OK christmas eve at the grandmother's; full of laughs and hugs and the usual drunk aunt marianne, but it felt rushed and empty somehow ( Read more... )

to my love, jessica ( Read more... )

today wasnt so bad as i thought it would be. still, i feel sort of listless and dead-like. ive been tiring very easily and passing out early/at random hours throughout the day since classes ended. i think it had something to do with not sleeping at all really for about four days, and very little sleep during the week and a half before that. having ( Read more... )

my parents are so cute ( Read more... )

my bathroom is so ridiculously clean right now...im tempted to take a second shower. i dont think its been this clean since i moved in. whew.

my fish, on the other hand, are still very unhappy. that will be taken care of when i get my second wind.