Just me...

[knifeedgefic]

I compartmentalize my life so much.

There's "Day Job" and "Theater Stuff" and "Fandom." There's "Family" and "Friends" and "People Who I'd Like To Punch In The Throat." There's "Art" and "Writing" and "Acting" and "Designing."

Some things cross all boundaries, but most get their little sliver of my life, and when I put them away and take out

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[quickreaver]

Boy, do I feel you on that first bullet point. That's where I was, two years ago. I all but quit taking freelance commissions. I had to recharge and re-prioritize. It's still a struggle, because the freelancer in me HATES saying no, so I put a monetary measure on it. If the client was willing to pay 'x' amount of money, and the project was something I knew I'd enjoy, I took it. Last year, I took a dayjob to provide insurance when my hubs was out of work, and it became pretty clear I missed my freelancing.

Do what feels right to you. You can always change your mind. ;) What's your new dayjob?

Congrats and good luck with the house!

And yes, sometimes life just sucks. If it didn't, we wouldn't enjoy our successes nearly as much. Looking forward to reading your writing. Hang in there, sister.

~C

[knifeedgefic]

It's less that I can't say no, and more "all I want is to say no." I just don't feel like arting it up that much any more, at least, not for other people. Every time I take a commission I feel less and less like I'm doing something I enjoy, and when I look at my work over the last few years, not only do I see a major decrease in amount of work, but also quality. I feel as though I'm regressing, not progressing. It's part of the reason why I pretty much disappeared from dA and the Salon.

But the new part time job will involve doing graphic design and social media marketing for the theater, which is something I'm good at and can pretty much do in my sleep. And since I'm spending most of my time there anyway, it made sense.

[devilscrayon]

I am in the process of buying a home too... glad to know I am not alone in feeling terrified! I love the house we're buying but good lord is it scary to plop down that much money.

[knifeedgefic]

It's REALLY scary. I feel like such an adult (I've been an adult for a while, but sometimes stuff like this just hammers it home). It helps that my husband has purchased a house before. It doesn't help that it was over a decade ago and things have changed since then. Our realtor has been awesome, and things are going along great with our bank loan and the inspection, but... It's still scary.

Exciting, too, though. I spend SO much time on houzz.com and pinterest and DIY sites looking for ideas... :)

[singedbylife]

It sounds to me like you are a perfectly human. In life, there is no such thing as being happy all the time. I guess we all hope for it and when we become adult, we get to realize that there is no such thing as forever happiness or feeling like or being a success all the time. Those realizations are hard to accept