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[knockout_nate]

I try to make the best decisions for myself. For example, if I were to move back home this summer before moving to Arizona, I know my parents would drive me to alcoholism. I know this because it is ingrained in my personality. Alcoholism runs in my family, and as we speak, I’m turning to it for immediate and short-lived comfort. The way I

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[quass_debonair]

I know myself. Once I've had something I will want it again. That is why I never sell video games. I know what a caffeine high is like, and thus I desire that experience again. I have an addictive personality.

A long time ago I made an argument supporting addictions as something constructive. Amusing. Addiction may be the symptom introduced to counteract the problem. To erase the itch I scratch my flesh until I bleed but the flea is still alive.

I suppose it puts things in perspective, a caffeine addict speaking of his own problems when tobacco and marijuana addicts are his relatives. But in any context addiction controls.

Perhaps I felt the need to be controlled. Perhaps I wanted to create a need so I could work for it. What does it matter? What is relevant now is that when I quit I always go back. I can rationalize and say it's okay because I don't hurt anyone but myself, but rationalizing leads to more rationalizing.

Addictions are something a person can live without. If you can avoid forming one, great.