for fuck's sake.
I dislike 98% of my so-called "friends" (this was brought to light when Tony lovingly bitched at me for being "selfish" for venting to him at an "inappropriate time"), and the 2% I do care about are quite a distance from me and I can't see them all the time.
And the main reason we suddenly started butting heads is because I finally decided what I wanted to do - I want to go to college as opposed to get a job (pocket money's okay, but I can mostly get what I need from scrounging change type of deal), and major in psychology with a minor on culinary arts. Because I started to be down to earth mature (though granted, I can be fucking dorky irl), they basically kinda saw it fit to shun me and form their own little clique. and then they bitch at me when I never hang out with them (because if I do, I feel horribly awkward and rejected pahahahaha).
(There ARE some exceptions - Kayla, my best friend, wants to attend art college so she's picking up a job to work to pay for her tuition. Jason wants to attend culinary school, so he's practicing and reading recipes while tidying around the house. And probably more.)
I don't watch Hetalia = automatic isolation.
I don't watch Kuroshitsuji = automatic isolation.
I don't really cosplay all that much, and I do not see fit to bash on people if they get it wrong. That's stupid and immature, at least go up to them and compliment them/ask where they got the idea for ______. Be nice about it, because bitching only makes you seem like an elitist snob.
And snobs have fucking ugly hearts. Trust me, since I'm kinda snobbish, I feel it seeping through.
I don't see it fit to be a popularity contest and basically go after anything that moves, despite going from ugly duckling to swan.
So basically in a nutshell: because I don't watch anime or read manga, because I do not see it fit to bitch about cosplay behind someone's back, because I don't find it great to whore around with a bunch of strangers and not stick true to people who were there first, because I'd rather listen to Kpop and actually talk about how it inspired me to FOLLOW MY FUCKING DREAMS AND TAKE CARE OF MY BODY, that automatically makes it alright for my old "friends" to treat me like shit, to the point of sobbing hysterically and digging nails into my fucking skin and damn near jumping off my porch to lay in the leaves and calm down, calm down.
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I don't compute this, at all.
and this is why I'm on Twitter all the time ;_____;
@dubuthighs, @yampanda, @keydazzler, @minhofirelight, @Hae_JinX3, @waylt, @alejongdro, anyone else; my entire t-list.
thank you, thank you so fucking much for everything you've done. all the retweets & random spams & sexual mentionings, just unf. i love you all.