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cut for trigger mentions, but nothing overly serious (suicide views)
i am...coping right now. i feel a lot better. a lot has happened, a lot still has yet to happen. but overall, it's better.
however...i wonder sometimes. like, what makes someone a huge bnf? and why do they get priorities over someone who has just the same problems as they do? why do people do things like x and y for attention? it's really fascinating to think about. like... someone could be experiencing suicidal thoughts but not actions
so they'll voice them. they won't be actually legit doing it, but they'll voice them. and their concerns, and hopes, and dreams. and to me, this seems like...this is a way of telling you to basically just unload and get it off your chest. because sometimes, you need to unload what you've bottled up.
like...i'm going to be honest. i did almost drink myself to death. the reasons being were completely selfish and i was a teenager, but i survived. i woke up in the hospital to this exchange student my drama teacher had and she just said "are you okay now?"
and like...i remember saying "now i can be."
but anyways, the point is...when someone "famous", either on twitter or tumblr says suicidal thoughts, what makes theirs so different from anyone else's? why are they so special? suicide affects...everyone. suicidal thoughts affect everyone; regardless of your status.
so WHY are bnfs given more "priority" in life? in this past...two days? two people have tried to ~kill themselves~. one, i have a weird feeling about for reasons, but one i personally don't follow anymore because of reasons. but like...their attempts have gone the most noticed because of how popular they are.
and i know a girl who's not AS popular as them, but also has her own problems. and people never talk to her about things, and place blame on her. why though? the thoughts are the same thing regardless of your status.
idk, i'm just...frustrated that one group of people get all this attention for voicing THEIR suicidal thoughts/actions
and people that basically aren't bnfs get shoved to the back corner. what about the people who...it's hard for them? and they're not big/important to speak up and out about it?
i am...coping right now. i feel a lot better. a lot has happened, a lot still has yet to happen. but overall, it's better.
however...i wonder sometimes. like, what makes someone a huge bnf? and why do they get priorities over someone who has just the same problems as they do? why do people do things like x and y for attention? it's really fascinating to think about. like... someone could be experiencing suicidal thoughts but not actions
so they'll voice them. they won't be actually legit doing it, but they'll voice them. and their concerns, and hopes, and dreams. and to me, this seems like...this is a way of telling you to basically just unload and get it off your chest. because sometimes, you need to unload what you've bottled up.
like...i'm going to be honest. i did almost drink myself to death. the reasons being were completely selfish and i was a teenager, but i survived. i woke up in the hospital to this exchange student my drama teacher had and she just said "are you okay now?"
and like...i remember saying "now i can be."
but anyways, the point is...when someone "famous", either on twitter or tumblr says suicidal thoughts, what makes theirs so different from anyone else's? why are they so special? suicide affects...everyone. suicidal thoughts affect everyone; regardless of your status.
so WHY are bnfs given more "priority" in life? in this past...two days? two people have tried to ~kill themselves~. one, i have a weird feeling about for reasons, but one i personally don't follow anymore because of reasons. but like...their attempts have gone the most noticed because of how popular they are.
and i know a girl who's not AS popular as them, but also has her own problems. and people never talk to her about things, and place blame on her. why though? the thoughts are the same thing regardless of your status.
idk, i'm just...frustrated that one group of people get all this attention for voicing THEIR suicidal thoughts/actions
and people that basically aren't bnfs get shoved to the back corner. what about the people who...it's hard for them? and they're not big/important to speak up and out about it?