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[koalayummy]

I am struggling and alone, so I will try this.  JJ is participating in relay for life at his school tonight.  He won't get back till 6am.  I wonder if maybe my body is sad because it subconsciously knows that nobody wanted to hang out with me tonight with JJ gone.  I have plenty of friends, but the only person who is ever interested in doing things

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[koalayummy]

Is that why you're called The Wandering Explorer?

Thank you, though! I think you are right - there is indeed something spiritual about it...

I decided upon poking about the cemetery, and Andrew & Ali were sitting on their steps as I was leaving, and asked if they could come too. It was as if "needs a companion" was hovering above my head, like the cowboy hat in those Arby's commercials. I am grateful for them.

You sound like a true pro. I am inspired by your successes. :)

[marvelahs]

I'm part of the same psychosis club. Time alone feels unproductive. Not sure why someone's company makes me feel OK to veg and watch the Daily Show, but I just can't turn it on when I am by myself. Or anything more creative, like wandering around a new neighborhood or making a daisy chain.

I've been told there are advantages to lonesome exploring. Mainly that you get to control exactly where you go and what you do. I will, for instance, reference the time I read about the MN Fringe Festival in the paper and ran to join the last volunteer orientation session of the season despite having no one to join me. Five years later, it is still my favorite summer event. Not sure if I'd call that spiritual, but the energy is different when you are by yourself, so you are likely to open yourself up to different situations that may not be available to you when you are with a buddy.

It's also one of the reasons why I don't feel like living alone. Because I get the feeling I WOULD be eating Hot Pockets and Ramen all the time, if left to my own