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Damn you Why do you have to smell so good? I can still smell you on my blankets and its been what almost a week since you left!? Grr

I just dont care anymore. I'm so tired and drained that I just want to lay here and do nothing. I picked up my parents from the airport yesterday after sitting in an hour and a half worth of traffic. The only one I was happy to see was Alexandra. I dont know. I've just lost all ability to give a fuck. Hows the song go.. "I just dont give a fuck" I ( Read more... )

Alright guys look. Amanda I do appreciate what you're doing for me and I love you for it. But I've had enough. I didn't erase it because I didn't want people reading I didn't erase it because "the truth hurts" I erased it because I said what I had to say. Sorry if I was being childish. Shit happens. Whether you hate me or not. I care about you. Its ( Read more... )

Todays one of those days where I just wanna lay around in my bra and underwear. I would. Except I gotta go to the airport and pick up my family ( stress city ) and Alex is coming up from Baltimore :) I haven't seen him since before I left for California. I'm gonna show him around the city. It'll be a nice day hopefully. He's going home tomorrow. ( Read more... )

I just have this horrible empty sinking feeling in my chest all the time now. I feel so alone and well... alone. It has nothing to do with what happened this week at all. Ok. Maybe a little. But still I feel like theres this hole in my self. And I'm unhappy all over again. People ask me if I'm ok and I just have to say no I can't lie. And theres ( Read more... )

Oh my god. I had a fucking awesome time tonight. Me Shelly Jen and Jena went to the John Mayer concert. We were outside drinkin first ( I wasn't ) but Shelly Jen and Jena got fuckin drunk. Jena was HAMMERED. But the concert was AWESOME. John Mayer is soooooo great!!! We were 5th row center. AMAZING seats. SOOOOO AMAZING ( Read more... )

well now that thats outta the way. I can continue to live my life. Yes I'm a little upset. I mean if I ask you a question and you dont answer me or tell me to pick. How is that my fault? If I'm doing something you dont like, tell me. Whatever. Now I just need to focus my attention to my school work and to my sister. all I really need is myself now ( Read more... )

what the fuck?