there's no good way for anyone, judge or whatever, to tell you you're disabled. lovely legal jargon and medical terms aside. seeing yourself written up in a court decision about disability, well, it's uniquely unpleasant ( Read more... )

so, i finally managed to break through the sort of barrier that was up on my writing. until last night, i hadn't done any writing since loosing my apartment back in July or August (whenever it was) but last night i managed to hammer out a CD review for grave concerns. this is a very good thing, since i haven't written and blogs, any poetry, or any ( Read more... )

so today turns out to be a day of fun running errands and other nonsense. i get the joy of going to DSS today, for one, and then i have to get all the way down-town in Albany to get to the bus station to pick up my tickets for the up-coming trip to providence (yay ( Read more... )

with all that has been going on in my life, i have been doing a bit of thinking. the marriage being over and the fall out from that, surprisingly, i am not as distraught as you might think i would be, now, some 4 months, just about, from the end of an eight-year marriage. i've always felt that there's really little point to life without a person to ( Read more... )

i sitting around working up a coffee buzz, listening to a bunch of new music trying to decide what to spin at alien nation on friday. so much of my life is so listless and unproductive that i feel this is at least something i can do that's not just wasting my time and loafing around ( Read more... )

i just brewed another pot of coffee, in a little while i need to walk across the western gateway bridge and hop a bus to albany to pick up robbie. robbie is spending the weekend with me, and i'm looking forward to it. because my time with robbie is limited, it is so precious to me. i take being a parent very seriously, and i feel guilty, and feel ( Read more... )

i think i have recovered from last night's spate of being a really miserable human. amazing what a little venting can do, right?

sometimes i just need to bitch, and thankfully i have an internet connection.

so, yeah. trying to do the not smoking thing, and i am sucking out because i still have tobacco and rolling papers kicking around, gah! i'm still chewing the gum though, and that helps. i didn't expect quitting smoking to be easy, after all ( Read more... )

i haven't been blogging hardly at all, mostly because there is not much to tell. i am at the sleep all day stage of this depression, so that is what i have been doing. and very little else ( Read more... )

so, i got back at about 4 in the morning from the infamous STD tour with Streak. It would have been a near universal disaster, except for the guys in Streak are really cool guys, and we managed to have a lot of fun despite venues that failed to promote, dropped us entirely, Streak's van being broken into, and lack of sleep and good food for 8 days ( Read more... )