[Fanfiction] I'm back! [R]
Title: I'm back!
Genre: Romance (I think so)
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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I looked at the house I was standing for and sighed. How long had I been away from this place? I didn't even now whether the one I searched for lived here at all. Maybe he moved away and didn't tell me. I laughed out loud, why would the person tell me that he had moved when he was the one, who had broken off the contact.
Again, I looked to the dark windows and I swallowed hardly. Maybe I should just ring the bell to see, if somebody opened the door or not. So I took the few steps to the door and looked to the doorbell. It still had his name on it. Heo YoungSaeng. I breathed in and out one more time and then I raised my hand and pushed the button.
“I want to be your boyfriend.”
“W-what?”
“I want to be your boyfriend.”
“I understood you. But why?”
“Why not?”
“What is with love?”
“I love you.”
Meanwhile I was standing half an hour in front of the door, nobody had opened. Probably he really moved away, even if his name was still standing at the bell. One last time I pushed it, maybe he was sleeping and didn't hear it at all. I sighed silently and walked a few steps away from the door. Still dark windows. Maybe I should give it another try tomorrow. Or just tried to contact one of the other guys, maybe they knew more.
“Are you searching me?” Why was this voice so familiar and foreign at the same time?
I turned around just to see the person I was looking for. YoungSaeng.
“Yes.”
“KyuJong...” He looked really surprised. I could not blame him, why should he expected me? But after the first shock went away he starred at me uneasy. “What do you want?”
Yeah, good question, one point for you. I didn't know why I come to this place after a half year of absence.
“So you love me?”
“Yeah, like I said.”
“But why?.”
“Not a real reason, I just love you”
“But you should know why you're loving me?”
“Never heard of 'Love at first sight'?”
“Fairy Tale.”
“Kim KyuJong, you are really annoying.”
“I know, I love you, too.”
“Don't you answer my question?”
Oops, I shouldn't daydream.
“I'm sorry.”
“So, why are you in front of my house, searching for me, after you leaving me without any saying half a year ago?” He waited for answer while he looked curious and feared at the same time.
“I just missed you.”
That was the truth. I leaved him for no reason. Well, yes, I had a reason, but I didn't talk to him about that. But how should I? How should I explain him, that I couldn't be with him together, like he wished? How should I say, that it was the best to let him go his own way without me, that I was not the right person for him?
He had all the rights to ask me why I did this. But I was sure, I had no answer for him. No answer that he liked.
“Ah, you missed me. Then why you left me? You had just stay by my side, you know? But no, Kim KyuJong decided on his own, he had to leave me because it was better for me. Wasn't that your words? 'YoungSaeng we have to break up, I'm not good for you.' Why didn't you let me decide this on my own? Why you had to decide it for me? Don't you think, I'm old enough to know who I want?”
I could hear his tears in his voice and I hated myself even more. Yeah, why didn't I let himself decide since it was his life. Why did I listen to someone else?
“You're right.” I agreed.
“That's all you've got to say? Then you can go, I don't want to see you anymore, okay? Just leave again.”
He wanted to go inside now, just let me stand here alone, but I didn't want to leave him like this. He was all sad and it was my fault and I didn't want to make the same mistake again. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my own, pressed him close to me. He screamed for a second in surprise and then struggled against my body.
“Let me go.” I could hear his tears even more.
“No, that's not what you want right now.” I hold him closer to me.
“Just let me go, KyuJong.” His fight became less.
“Not now.” I replied and stroked his back.
“You bastard.” He gave up.
“That's why you love me, right? Give me your key.”
He did as I told him and I opened the door with him in my arms and lead him to his living room. I threw the key on the table and sat down with him on the sofa.
“You really are a bastard. Why can't I fight against you?” He was more talking to himself than to me.
“Like I said before, you just love me.” I smiled a bit.
“Tell me everything.”
I looked up confused. What was that now? “About what?”
“Why did you go away? Leaving me here alone? Do you know how long I tried to get over you? And it doesn't even work. Look at me, I'm weak.”
I took him into an embrace. I was a really bad person, hurting him so much. “You're not weak. You're the strongest person I know so far. I'm weak because I was such a coward leaving you.”
“I beg you to leave our son if you want the best for him.”
“Why?”
Don't you see what you doing to him?”
“I just love him.”
“Yeah, but he's a man. And a man should not love another man. That's disgusting.”
“Why cannot a man loves another man? What's wrong with that?”
“It's still our son. We don't accept this kind of relationship any longer. Understand?”
“Will you tell me?” He turned around in my arms to look into my eyes.
“There isn't really much to tell.” I tried to talk this theme down. I didn't want him to hate his parents, that it was there wish, that I left their son.
“Why not just talk about it?”
Yeah, why not? Blame themselves, when they only wanted the best for their son. Maybe they should have known that their son had his own mind.
“Why not just kiss me?” I grinned. Maybe this would work.
And yeah, he was speechless.
“Kim KyuJong, you are really annoying.” Yep, that sounded like the old YoungSaeng.
“I know, second point why you love me.”
He rolled his eyes and tried to escape from my embrace.
“Don't go away.” I held him closer again.
“But you did as well.”
“Yep, but I came back.”
“So why you're thinking I will not coming back?”
“Right, good point, you're not like me. But when I beg you to stay in my arms like this?” I tried my puppy eyes on him.
“Okay you win.” He gave up and clung to my chest.
“Now.. what about my kiss?”
He looked up to me and slowly came up to me. I was curious if he would taste still the same. “You want a kiss?”
“YoungSaeng?”
“What is it?”
“Must go to work now.”
“Have fun there.”
“What about a kiss?”
“You want a kiss?”
“Yep.”
“Why should I give you one?”
“Because you love me!”
“Yep.” I answered the old playing way.
“Then get it.” He grinned cheeky.
And I did what he said. And for the first time after a half year I felt these wonderful lips on my own again. Carefully I pressed my own lips on his and slowly moved them, kissed him softly and tenderly. I didn't know if I could go further, but I just tried it. I poked with my tongue against his lower lip, just to look, what would happen. And like I expected, he opened his mouth a bit to invite me to enter it. And I did like he wished, slowly got my tongue into his mouth, searched for its playmate and fight a little with it. And the boy in my arms began to moan silently while my body responded to this. Blood rushed through my veins down my body. I stopped the kiss for a few seconds, just to lay him on the sofa and me above him.
He did not mind when I kissed him again like before and slid my hands under his sweater this time. Hell, I missed him really, I felt it right now as I touched the soft skin under his clothes. I wanted to rip them from him, but I controlled myself and pushed his shirt slowly, piece by piece to top, so I could take it off him. He looked so sexy under me, with this dazed look in his eyes and his half body naked. My lips wandered from his throat to his chest, biting gently his nipples and kissed me slowly down to his belly and more to the south. He breath deep in pleasure and his body reacted to me now.
And I knew I really couldn't resist to him any longer. And his eyes were telling me the same about him. He was nearly at his limit without let me do much. I stood up to strip off my own clothes while he was took off his pants. Now, both of us all naked, I really couldn't resist. My lips just crushed on his lips, my tongue entered his mouth as soon as our lips touched each other and I pressed my lower body against his and we both moaned in time together in the kiss.
I kissed again my way back down to his body, but this time I could go further to south, and he groaned loud as my lips met his harden member. I kissed and licked a bit on it while YoungSaeng really was catch in his excitement.
But I stopped before he already reached his climax. I didn't want to end this like that. I needed him so much that I could not let him come yet. And he seemed to understand because he spread his legs without let me say it. I looked into his dazed eyes, and knew that he just waited that I began to prepare him for my member.
I kissed his chest and belly while I slowly entered my first finger into him. He let out a silent wince and I waited a few seconds until I began to move it. But not long and I added a second finger, now not waiting until he was used to it. He winced again, but now more in pleasure, so I just added a third one, only to get sure, and waited again before I stretched him enough, so he would not have much pain. His moaning became deeper and I decided that I could not wait any longer, so I took my fingers out of him and positioned me through his legs.
“I will be gentle.” I said before I slowly moved my member inside him.
“I.. know..” He hissed one time. “Damn, I forgot... it.. already..” He said between hard breathes.
“You shouldn't.” I answered and waited so he could get used to me length.
“It was your.. fault.. and you..” He moaned because I began to move in and out into him. “..know that.” He ended his sentence.
I just smiled and kissed him while I searched for his sweet spot. And I found it really quick and let him groan out loud.
“You're so hot.” I moaned in pleasure while I started to getting faster.
“Don't talk and play.”
“Sorry, love.” I grinned and got again a bit faster.
I was already at my limit as I grabbed his member to pump it in the same rhythm like my thrust. And after a few more thrust I came deep in him while he was coming in the same time as me in my hand.
Exhausted, I went outside him and lay down next to him, pulling him back into my arms. And there we lay, waiting to get our normally breath again.
Then his eyes met mine and he smiled happily.
“Welcome back.” He said and kissed my lips.
I hugged him more. “I'm back.”
Genre: Romance (I think so)
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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I looked at the house I was standing for and sighed. How long had I been away from this place? I didn't even now whether the one I searched for lived here at all. Maybe he moved away and didn't tell me. I laughed out loud, why would the person tell me that he had moved when he was the one, who had broken off the contact.
Again, I looked to the dark windows and I swallowed hardly. Maybe I should just ring the bell to see, if somebody opened the door or not. So I took the few steps to the door and looked to the doorbell. It still had his name on it. Heo YoungSaeng. I breathed in and out one more time and then I raised my hand and pushed the button.
“I want to be your boyfriend.”
“W-what?”
“I want to be your boyfriend.”
“I understood you. But why?”
“Why not?”
“What is with love?”
“I love you.”
Meanwhile I was standing half an hour in front of the door, nobody had opened. Probably he really moved away, even if his name was still standing at the bell. One last time I pushed it, maybe he was sleeping and didn't hear it at all. I sighed silently and walked a few steps away from the door. Still dark windows. Maybe I should give it another try tomorrow. Or just tried to contact one of the other guys, maybe they knew more.
“Are you searching me?” Why was this voice so familiar and foreign at the same time?
I turned around just to see the person I was looking for. YoungSaeng.
“Yes.”
“KyuJong...” He looked really surprised. I could not blame him, why should he expected me? But after the first shock went away he starred at me uneasy. “What do you want?”
Yeah, good question, one point for you. I didn't know why I come to this place after a half year of absence.
“So you love me?”
“Yeah, like I said.”
“But why?.”
“Not a real reason, I just love you”
“But you should know why you're loving me?”
“Never heard of 'Love at first sight'?”
“Fairy Tale.”
“Kim KyuJong, you are really annoying.”
“I know, I love you, too.”
“Don't you answer my question?”
Oops, I shouldn't daydream.
“I'm sorry.”
“So, why are you in front of my house, searching for me, after you leaving me without any saying half a year ago?” He waited for answer while he looked curious and feared at the same time.
“I just missed you.”
That was the truth. I leaved him for no reason. Well, yes, I had a reason, but I didn't talk to him about that. But how should I? How should I explain him, that I couldn't be with him together, like he wished? How should I say, that it was the best to let him go his own way without me, that I was not the right person for him?
He had all the rights to ask me why I did this. But I was sure, I had no answer for him. No answer that he liked.
“Ah, you missed me. Then why you left me? You had just stay by my side, you know? But no, Kim KyuJong decided on his own, he had to leave me because it was better for me. Wasn't that your words? 'YoungSaeng we have to break up, I'm not good for you.' Why didn't you let me decide this on my own? Why you had to decide it for me? Don't you think, I'm old enough to know who I want?”
I could hear his tears in his voice and I hated myself even more. Yeah, why didn't I let himself decide since it was his life. Why did I listen to someone else?
“You're right.” I agreed.
“That's all you've got to say? Then you can go, I don't want to see you anymore, okay? Just leave again.”
He wanted to go inside now, just let me stand here alone, but I didn't want to leave him like this. He was all sad and it was my fault and I didn't want to make the same mistake again. I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my own, pressed him close to me. He screamed for a second in surprise and then struggled against my body.
“Let me go.” I could hear his tears even more.
“No, that's not what you want right now.” I hold him closer to me.
“Just let me go, KyuJong.” His fight became less.
“Not now.” I replied and stroked his back.
“You bastard.” He gave up.
“That's why you love me, right? Give me your key.”
He did as I told him and I opened the door with him in my arms and lead him to his living room. I threw the key on the table and sat down with him on the sofa.
“You really are a bastard. Why can't I fight against you?” He was more talking to himself than to me.
“Like I said before, you just love me.” I smiled a bit.
“Tell me everything.”
I looked up confused. What was that now? “About what?”
“Why did you go away? Leaving me here alone? Do you know how long I tried to get over you? And it doesn't even work. Look at me, I'm weak.”
I took him into an embrace. I was a really bad person, hurting him so much. “You're not weak. You're the strongest person I know so far. I'm weak because I was such a coward leaving you.”
“I beg you to leave our son if you want the best for him.”
“Why?”
Don't you see what you doing to him?”
“I just love him.”
“Yeah, but he's a man. And a man should not love another man. That's disgusting.”
“Why cannot a man loves another man? What's wrong with that?”
“It's still our son. We don't accept this kind of relationship any longer. Understand?”
“Will you tell me?” He turned around in my arms to look into my eyes.
“There isn't really much to tell.” I tried to talk this theme down. I didn't want him to hate his parents, that it was there wish, that I left their son.
“Why not just talk about it?”
Yeah, why not? Blame themselves, when they only wanted the best for their son. Maybe they should have known that their son had his own mind.
“Why not just kiss me?” I grinned. Maybe this would work.
And yeah, he was speechless.
“Kim KyuJong, you are really annoying.” Yep, that sounded like the old YoungSaeng.
“I know, second point why you love me.”
He rolled his eyes and tried to escape from my embrace.
“Don't go away.” I held him closer again.
“But you did as well.”
“Yep, but I came back.”
“So why you're thinking I will not coming back?”
“Right, good point, you're not like me. But when I beg you to stay in my arms like this?” I tried my puppy eyes on him.
“Okay you win.” He gave up and clung to my chest.
“Now.. what about my kiss?”
He looked up to me and slowly came up to me. I was curious if he would taste still the same. “You want a kiss?”
“YoungSaeng?”
“What is it?”
“Must go to work now.”
“Have fun there.”
“What about a kiss?”
“You want a kiss?”
“Yep.”
“Why should I give you one?”
“Because you love me!”
“Yep.” I answered the old playing way.
“Then get it.” He grinned cheeky.
And I did what he said. And for the first time after a half year I felt these wonderful lips on my own again. Carefully I pressed my own lips on his and slowly moved them, kissed him softly and tenderly. I didn't know if I could go further, but I just tried it. I poked with my tongue against his lower lip, just to look, what would happen. And like I expected, he opened his mouth a bit to invite me to enter it. And I did like he wished, slowly got my tongue into his mouth, searched for its playmate and fight a little with it. And the boy in my arms began to moan silently while my body responded to this. Blood rushed through my veins down my body. I stopped the kiss for a few seconds, just to lay him on the sofa and me above him.
He did not mind when I kissed him again like before and slid my hands under his sweater this time. Hell, I missed him really, I felt it right now as I touched the soft skin under his clothes. I wanted to rip them from him, but I controlled myself and pushed his shirt slowly, piece by piece to top, so I could take it off him. He looked so sexy under me, with this dazed look in his eyes and his half body naked. My lips wandered from his throat to his chest, biting gently his nipples and kissed me slowly down to his belly and more to the south. He breath deep in pleasure and his body reacted to me now.
And I knew I really couldn't resist to him any longer. And his eyes were telling me the same about him. He was nearly at his limit without let me do much. I stood up to strip off my own clothes while he was took off his pants. Now, both of us all naked, I really couldn't resist. My lips just crushed on his lips, my tongue entered his mouth as soon as our lips touched each other and I pressed my lower body against his and we both moaned in time together in the kiss.
I kissed again my way back down to his body, but this time I could go further to south, and he groaned loud as my lips met his harden member. I kissed and licked a bit on it while YoungSaeng really was catch in his excitement.
But I stopped before he already reached his climax. I didn't want to end this like that. I needed him so much that I could not let him come yet. And he seemed to understand because he spread his legs without let me say it. I looked into his dazed eyes, and knew that he just waited that I began to prepare him for my member.
I kissed his chest and belly while I slowly entered my first finger into him. He let out a silent wince and I waited a few seconds until I began to move it. But not long and I added a second finger, now not waiting until he was used to it. He winced again, but now more in pleasure, so I just added a third one, only to get sure, and waited again before I stretched him enough, so he would not have much pain. His moaning became deeper and I decided that I could not wait any longer, so I took my fingers out of him and positioned me through his legs.
“I will be gentle.” I said before I slowly moved my member inside him.
“I.. know..” He hissed one time. “Damn, I forgot... it.. already..” He said between hard breathes.
“You shouldn't.” I answered and waited so he could get used to me length.
“It was your.. fault.. and you..” He moaned because I began to move in and out into him. “..know that.” He ended his sentence.
I just smiled and kissed him while I searched for his sweet spot. And I found it really quick and let him groan out loud.
“You're so hot.” I moaned in pleasure while I started to getting faster.
“Don't talk and play.”
“Sorry, love.” I grinned and got again a bit faster.
I was already at my limit as I grabbed his member to pump it in the same rhythm like my thrust. And after a few more thrust I came deep in him while he was coming in the same time as me in my hand.
Exhausted, I went outside him and lay down next to him, pulling him back into my arms. And there we lay, waiting to get our normally breath again.
Then his eyes met mine and he smiled happily.
“Welcome back.” He said and kissed my lips.
I hugged him more. “I'm back.”