[Fanfiction] Tik Tok (Songfic)
And another upload from my KyuSaeng stuff XD
Just because I want shadichan something to read, because she can't be reading them on her laptop <3 [All because of you, love ♥] And as you know, this belongs to her! XD So here we go.
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Title: Tik Tok
Inspiration: Tik Tok - 2PM
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong (like all of my Fanfictions XD)
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
And as you see it's R-rated, maybe it's even smut... Just want to say it XD
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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Nobody knows
How I want you like this everyday
Every time I embrace you behind the stage
My heart bursts
“Great job!” Our manager shouted to us when we left the stage.
Another performance was done and we were all tired and exhausted. The other three hurried to go to the dressing room and changed in normal outfits.
But I wasn't in a hurry, I was watching the beautiful person in front of me, which seemed to be just like me. He didn't hurry to the others, but walked slowly to the dressing room.
During the performance I could hardly concentrate on the lyrics and dance because the whole time I could see this handsome guy dancing and listened to his voice. And I was the whole time thinking, when it was time to leave the stage so we could go backstage. I could hardly bear it not to touch him. The good thing was, that our fans loved these couple thing inside the group and lucky for me, I was with him a couple. The KyuSaeng couple. I smiled. When they knew that this wasn't only a show, I wondered how they would react.
We were near the dressing room now, I could here the other three from inside and he was about to open the door when I reached him and hugged him from behind.
“You did a great job, like always.” I said silently in his ear and saw how he shivered.
“Kyu Jong, we're not at home.” He tried to free himself, but I held him even tighter for a moment.
“I know.” Finally I led him go. We had to change and had to drive home, it was late and we had to stand up early tomorrow.
He turned around to face me and smiled a bit.
“Just wait until we're at home.” He muttered and gave me a quick peck on my lips, before he entered the room.
I sighed loudly. “I try.” I answered him after seconds what he didn't hear anymore and followed him into the room.
I can hear more loudly in my ear
what you say with your gaze, that's right
Your desire for me, your thirst
We go crazy for each other like this
After we came home, the others wanted to eat something together. I was really frustrated now. It was hard enough for me to wait until we got home. I wanted to reach for his hand and wanted to go into our room, lock the door and didn't open up if someone was knocking. I wanted to share the night with him, I needed him right now.
But he only smiled, apologizing and followed the other three into the kitchen, where they started to prepare something for dinner.
Again I sighed deep and followed them as well, but I didn't help them. I stood in the door and watched them. It seemed as if the other members wanted to separate us a bit because every time when Young Saeng wanted to come to me, one of them gave him things to carry to the table. I was disappointed. How could they...?
“Kyu Jong, sit down, it's already done.”
I frowned when I heard the voice of Hyun Joong, but did as he told me. I silently ate the things, didn't talk to anyone because I was afraid of saying something, no, I was afraid to yell to somebody. So I stayed silent and waited to go to our bedrooms.
I felt his eyes on me, but I didn't look up. I was sure, that I was going crazy when I looked into his eyes because I knew that I would see longing and need in them. And I knew that I wouldn't care anymore, that the others were around us, that they would see, how we felt for each other. We never talked to them about the fact, that we loved each other. We didn't find it necessary because it was something between us. It was enough that we knew.
That I love you secretly
That you're really my girl(*)
Drive me so crazy every day
I just want you, you this way
How...? It wasn't enough that we had to eat together.. Jung Min had the great idea to watch a movie together before we went for sleeping, but I was really pissed off now. I didn't say anything, when he proposed for it, I only stood up and left the kitchen. That was certainly intended. They stole my time with Young Saeng. When I reached my room, I slammed the door and sat down on my bed. I was really going crazy. Why couldn't have my time with the one I loved? Maybe I should tell them everything, so they let us rest. So we could be together when we wanted to. A sigh left my mouth. I didn't know, how long I was able to act like this, how long I was able to play the only good friend and member and didn't be the lover.
I looked to the clock above my door. How long would it take him to get free from the others?
Come here tik tok tik tok tik tok
When I see you tik tok tik tok tik tok
All day tik tok tik tok tik tok
My heart tik tok tik tok tik tok
I lay down on my bed and stared to the ceiling. I told me, that I only were waiting for 15 minutes, then I would give up and went sleeping without him, even this would be really hard for me. I count the seconds, one, two, three, four, five, … I listened to the clock, concentrate to the tik tok of the indicator.
Nobody knows
That you and I love like this every day
There's no room in my heart for anyone to come in besides you
I was confused when Kyu Jong left the kitchen with an annoyed look. He wasn't pleased. That Jung Min wanted to watch a movie with all of us and I could understand him. I was also waiting for a space to escape from the others, but I didn't found any. I wondered how long he would wait for me to come to the bedroom.
It wasn't the first time, that one of us had to wait for the other. It was quite often that one of the others took me or him, like they wanted to separate us, like the knew something about us. But they were never talking about that.
I looked on my watch and tried to remember how late it was when Kyu Jong left the kitchen. How much time would he give me to try an escape?
I wanted to go to him right now, but I wasn't sure, if that would be to obvious for the others. But it could also be that I was just worried about him. And at least there was the fact, that Kyu Jong and I were sharing a bedroom together. How should they know what was going on?
Tik, I knew from the beginning
Tik, there was something about you
Tik, in that gaze you stared at me with
I didn't listen to the others anymore. I was deep in my thought and looked down at my watch. I already had pass five minutes. How much longer did I have? I followed the second hand on my watch. And I felt, that I really missed him already, even he was only some steps away from me.
The hand moved forward. A minute passed again. Could I risk it and went to our room now?
I didn't want to let him wait this long. We said at the beginning that we would wait only a few minutes because there was still the risk that somebody from the others would know it somehow.
I wondered, why we decided to keep it as a secret. We would never have this hiding, when we had talked to them right from the beginning. But we said that it would be better for the group if nobody would know it.
Another minute passed. There wasn't much time left, I thought and stood up.
“You don't watch with us?” Hyun Joong asked me and I shook my head.
“I'm tired. And I wanted to know if everything is alright with Kyu Jong.” I said as an excuse and he nodded.
“Hurry up, before he's sleeping.” I closed my eyes when I heard what Jung Min said. Did he know? If yes.. would he tell the other ones already? I opened my eyes again and looked into the smiling face of Hyung Joon.
“Sleep well and don't worry. He would have a hard time this night.” He nodded in Jung Min's direction.
I returned the smile and said good night to them. When I was sure they didn't see me anymore I was just running to our room and hoped that he wasn't already sleeping.
Tok, For your exhilarating love
Tok, I'm always thirsty
Tok, I keep searching for you secretly
Again my eyes fixed the clock. Eight minutes, that means he had only seven minutes left. Normally he followed me as soon as he could and it only took him about five minutes. Five minutes were the limit. And now he let me wait three minutes over the limit. Stupid Jung Min with his movies.
I stood up and took my shirt off because I wanted to start to change in my sleep clothes. I really doubt that he would make it in time, therefore I changed.
When I wanted to go to my wardrobe I heard a silent knock on the door and saw the door opened. My heart was running a fast beat. He was here now! I tried to take a deep breath to calm down myself, but I failed.
The second I saw him, I forgot how long I waited, I forgot what I was about to do. I just saw him. And as soon as his eyes met mine, he was running right into my arms, his lips crashed on mine and he pressed himself closer to me. I felt like a drowning person. Now I felt how much I missed his kisses and touches. His hands were wandering over my already naked back and moved towards my front body.
“Calm down a bit.” I said after he stopped to kiss me.
“As if you could.” He answered with a smile and gave me a short peck.
“Hardly” I smiled back and kissed him longer.
My tongue slid lightly over his lips and poked them for open. And he did as I wished, he opened his mouth and welcomed me with his tongue. I played with his while I pushed his shirt above to caress the skin under it. When I reached his nipples I couldn't do anything other and pinched one of them. A moan left between our lips and I stopped the kiss to help him with his shirt taking off. As soon as it reached the floor, my lips were on his again, busy with kissing him.
I lead him to the bed and lay him down there carefully, but didn't stop to kiss him. Our tongues were fighting inside his mouth and I started to stroke over his chest, pinched his nipples now and then.
When we ended our kiss because we were already panting hard I continued with my kisses on his neck, sucking at one spot of it, knowing he would hate me for that, but I wanted to mark him as mine. I kissed his lips shortly as an excuse and then moved back to his neck. I followed a line over his collarbone to his chest, kissed every inch of his skin I could find. He moved uneasy under me and I knew how much he enjoyed my caresses.
When I bit in one of his nipples he let out a deep moan and his hands were starting to stroke over my chest and moved more down to my pants. I couldn't hide a smile when I looked up into his face.
“Someone is really impatient.” I said cheeky.
He glared at me with his dazed eyes. “Your fault.” He answered and reached for my lips to kiss my passionately.
I returned it like him and moved with my hands towards his pants, too. I couldn't wait to see him full naked under me. I got already hard when I was only thinking about this.
I was sure he noticed it because now it was his turn to smile cheeky.
“I am impatient?” He asked playfully and touched my member through the pants, what made me groan.
I didn't reply to his question, I just kissed him excited. Now it was his turn to moan again and I took his pants off with his help. And he didn't wait and undressed me as well, so that we were full naked now.
Lightly breathless I looked at his body. Every time I saw him like that, I was speechless. And he always blushed.
I slowly touched his chest with my fingers when our lips crashed on each other again. I followed an invisible line to his lower body and finally touched his member. He was as hard as I was. I slowly stroked his member with my fingers until I took it in my fist and began to rubbed it. He let go the kiss and moan in pleasure while his hands clutched at my shoulders.
But I didn't do him a favor and let him come already. He should come together with me so I stopped the rubbing what he replied with a frustrated look.
“Lie down.” I told him with a husky voice and he did fast as he was told. I was between his legs and kissed his chest again while my hand was moving to his butt. I didn't say anything as I entered a finger in him and he only moaned excited. So I didn't wait and added a second finger in him which made him moan loader. I smiled, knew that he was enjoying my preparation. I moved my fingers inside him, made him moan loader and faster, made his heart beating faster.
When I was sure, I prepared him enough, I took my fingers out of him and placed me over him. I kissed his lips short and then looked into his eyes, while I was slowly put myself into him. But he wasn't showing any pain and I was glad.
Then I was full in him and moved carefully in and out, still my eyes on his ones, so I could stop when he felt uncomfortable. But there was no sign of it and I started to make my thrusts faster and deeper. I searched for his sweet spot to hear him groan full of pleasure and I found it really fast. I hold onto this spot and it didn't take long until his fingers clawed into my shoulders.
I was sure, he was near his climax now, just like me, and I reached for his member again to rub it in the same rhythm as my thrusts.
And after some more thrusts and rubs he came long and with a deep moan in my hand. I stopped the rubs and concentrated on my thrusts and after two more of them I came inside him.
You're my only star
No one knows about anything, don't worry
Look at my eyes, I'll protect you
I'm by your side, just like this
Exhausted I pulled myself out off him and lay down next to him. He didn't let pass a second, he was right there in my arms, snuggled deep in them. We tried to reach our normal breath again and I was listening to the hand of the clock ticking. One, two, three, four, five...
“Kyu Jong?”
I looked into his eyes, wondering what he was thinking about, because I could see some fear in them. I kissed his forehead to let him know I was listening.
“Do you think.. they know something?” He asked silently.
I saw the point of his fear. I was wondering the same because I couldn't imagine how they would react if they knew about me and him. Would they be like now if they would know about us?
His eyes were still on mine, fear mirrored in them. I wanted to make it disappear so I smiled.
“Even if they knew, it would be alright.” I kissed his forehead again. “I will protect you, no matter what. We will stay together even when they want to separate us, just like now.”
It's our secret, it's our secret, its our secret
It's taking control of me
“Don't you think, we should tell them. It is only fair to them.” He asked after a while.
“Maybe you're right, but we shouldn't do it now. They will be confused for sure. So we should find a good time to tell them about us. And as long as we waited for that day, it would be our secret.”
He smiled after he heard my answer and I was glad that I could take away his fear. Then he yawned under his hand and snuggled again deeper in my arms. I placed a kiss on top of his hair and stroked his back and he was falling asleep after some minutes.
But his question was controlling my mind. If we would keep it as our secret, we had to control ourselves in front of the other members. Only some gazes, only some touches on stage. And only sharing the nights together. But there would be no other time to touch him, to kiss him or feel him. I wondered how long we could stand this circumstances.
Escape everyone's eyes, spill the burden of our relationship onto me
In my dreams, I hold onto your hand proudly like everyone else and walk
In my busy day, my work, dreams and everything else are forgotten
By our love going tik tok like the hand on a clock that doesn't know how to stop
Should we really wait for the right day to tell them? Or was it better to tell them as soon as possible. I made a decision. I would tell them tomorrow before our schedule would start. It was only fair to them. And whatever they would say, they could never take him away from me. Because he was my everything.
I smiled while I pressed him closer to me and closed my eyes. The last thing I heard before I drifted into dreams of him and me were the sound from the hand of my clock.
Tik tok tik tok tik tok
(*) It's the text of the songtext and I didn't want to change it here. XD
Just because I want shadichan something to read, because she can't be reading them on her laptop <3 [All because of you, love ♥] And as you know, this belongs to her! XD So here we go.
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Title: Tik Tok
Inspiration: Tik Tok - 2PM
Rating: R ! [contains Sex between Guys]
Pairing: KyuSaeng [KyuJong x YoungSaeng]
POV: KyuJong (like all of my Fanfictions XD)
Warning: English is not my first language, so please accept and look over mistakes.
And as you see it's R-rated, maybe it's even smut... Just want to say it XD
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons I used in the fanfiction.
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Nobody knows
How I want you like this everyday
Every time I embrace you behind the stage
My heart bursts
“Great job!” Our manager shouted to us when we left the stage.
Another performance was done and we were all tired and exhausted. The other three hurried to go to the dressing room and changed in normal outfits.
But I wasn't in a hurry, I was watching the beautiful person in front of me, which seemed to be just like me. He didn't hurry to the others, but walked slowly to the dressing room.
During the performance I could hardly concentrate on the lyrics and dance because the whole time I could see this handsome guy dancing and listened to his voice. And I was the whole time thinking, when it was time to leave the stage so we could go backstage. I could hardly bear it not to touch him. The good thing was, that our fans loved these couple thing inside the group and lucky for me, I was with him a couple. The KyuSaeng couple. I smiled. When they knew that this wasn't only a show, I wondered how they would react.
We were near the dressing room now, I could here the other three from inside and he was about to open the door when I reached him and hugged him from behind.
“You did a great job, like always.” I said silently in his ear and saw how he shivered.
“Kyu Jong, we're not at home.” He tried to free himself, but I held him even tighter for a moment.
“I know.” Finally I led him go. We had to change and had to drive home, it was late and we had to stand up early tomorrow.
He turned around to face me and smiled a bit.
“Just wait until we're at home.” He muttered and gave me a quick peck on my lips, before he entered the room.
I sighed loudly. “I try.” I answered him after seconds what he didn't hear anymore and followed him into the room.
I can hear more loudly in my ear
what you say with your gaze, that's right
Your desire for me, your thirst
We go crazy for each other like this
After we came home, the others wanted to eat something together. I was really frustrated now. It was hard enough for me to wait until we got home. I wanted to reach for his hand and wanted to go into our room, lock the door and didn't open up if someone was knocking. I wanted to share the night with him, I needed him right now.
But he only smiled, apologizing and followed the other three into the kitchen, where they started to prepare something for dinner.
Again I sighed deep and followed them as well, but I didn't help them. I stood in the door and watched them. It seemed as if the other members wanted to separate us a bit because every time when Young Saeng wanted to come to me, one of them gave him things to carry to the table. I was disappointed. How could they...?
“Kyu Jong, sit down, it's already done.”
I frowned when I heard the voice of Hyun Joong, but did as he told me. I silently ate the things, didn't talk to anyone because I was afraid of saying something, no, I was afraid to yell to somebody. So I stayed silent and waited to go to our bedrooms.
I felt his eyes on me, but I didn't look up. I was sure, that I was going crazy when I looked into his eyes because I knew that I would see longing and need in them. And I knew that I wouldn't care anymore, that the others were around us, that they would see, how we felt for each other. We never talked to them about the fact, that we loved each other. We didn't find it necessary because it was something between us. It was enough that we knew.
That I love you secretly
That you're really my girl(*)
Drive me so crazy every day
I just want you, you this way
How...? It wasn't enough that we had to eat together.. Jung Min had the great idea to watch a movie together before we went for sleeping, but I was really pissed off now. I didn't say anything, when he proposed for it, I only stood up and left the kitchen. That was certainly intended. They stole my time with Young Saeng. When I reached my room, I slammed the door and sat down on my bed. I was really going crazy. Why couldn't have my time with the one I loved? Maybe I should tell them everything, so they let us rest. So we could be together when we wanted to. A sigh left my mouth. I didn't know, how long I was able to act like this, how long I was able to play the only good friend and member and didn't be the lover.
I looked to the clock above my door. How long would it take him to get free from the others?
Come here tik tok tik tok tik tok
When I see you tik tok tik tok tik tok
All day tik tok tik tok tik tok
My heart tik tok tik tok tik tok
I lay down on my bed and stared to the ceiling. I told me, that I only were waiting for 15 minutes, then I would give up and went sleeping without him, even this would be really hard for me. I count the seconds, one, two, three, four, five, … I listened to the clock, concentrate to the tik tok of the indicator.
Nobody knows
That you and I love like this every day
There's no room in my heart for anyone to come in besides you
I was confused when Kyu Jong left the kitchen with an annoyed look. He wasn't pleased. That Jung Min wanted to watch a movie with all of us and I could understand him. I was also waiting for a space to escape from the others, but I didn't found any. I wondered how long he would wait for me to come to the bedroom.
It wasn't the first time, that one of us had to wait for the other. It was quite often that one of the others took me or him, like they wanted to separate us, like the knew something about us. But they were never talking about that.
I looked on my watch and tried to remember how late it was when Kyu Jong left the kitchen. How much time would he give me to try an escape?
I wanted to go to him right now, but I wasn't sure, if that would be to obvious for the others. But it could also be that I was just worried about him. And at least there was the fact, that Kyu Jong and I were sharing a bedroom together. How should they know what was going on?
Tik, I knew from the beginning
Tik, there was something about you
Tik, in that gaze you stared at me with
I didn't listen to the others anymore. I was deep in my thought and looked down at my watch. I already had pass five minutes. How much longer did I have? I followed the second hand on my watch. And I felt, that I really missed him already, even he was only some steps away from me.
The hand moved forward. A minute passed again. Could I risk it and went to our room now?
I didn't want to let him wait this long. We said at the beginning that we would wait only a few minutes because there was still the risk that somebody from the others would know it somehow.
I wondered, why we decided to keep it as a secret. We would never have this hiding, when we had talked to them right from the beginning. But we said that it would be better for the group if nobody would know it.
Another minute passed. There wasn't much time left, I thought and stood up.
“You don't watch with us?” Hyun Joong asked me and I shook my head.
“I'm tired. And I wanted to know if everything is alright with Kyu Jong.” I said as an excuse and he nodded.
“Hurry up, before he's sleeping.” I closed my eyes when I heard what Jung Min said. Did he know? If yes.. would he tell the other ones already? I opened my eyes again and looked into the smiling face of Hyung Joon.
“Sleep well and don't worry. He would have a hard time this night.” He nodded in Jung Min's direction.
I returned the smile and said good night to them. When I was sure they didn't see me anymore I was just running to our room and hoped that he wasn't already sleeping.
Tok, For your exhilarating love
Tok, I'm always thirsty
Tok, I keep searching for you secretly
Again my eyes fixed the clock. Eight minutes, that means he had only seven minutes left. Normally he followed me as soon as he could and it only took him about five minutes. Five minutes were the limit. And now he let me wait three minutes over the limit. Stupid Jung Min with his movies.
I stood up and took my shirt off because I wanted to start to change in my sleep clothes. I really doubt that he would make it in time, therefore I changed.
When I wanted to go to my wardrobe I heard a silent knock on the door and saw the door opened. My heart was running a fast beat. He was here now! I tried to take a deep breath to calm down myself, but I failed.
The second I saw him, I forgot how long I waited, I forgot what I was about to do. I just saw him. And as soon as his eyes met mine, he was running right into my arms, his lips crashed on mine and he pressed himself closer to me. I felt like a drowning person. Now I felt how much I missed his kisses and touches. His hands were wandering over my already naked back and moved towards my front body.
“Calm down a bit.” I said after he stopped to kiss me.
“As if you could.” He answered with a smile and gave me a short peck.
“Hardly” I smiled back and kissed him longer.
My tongue slid lightly over his lips and poked them for open. And he did as I wished, he opened his mouth and welcomed me with his tongue. I played with his while I pushed his shirt above to caress the skin under it. When I reached his nipples I couldn't do anything other and pinched one of them. A moan left between our lips and I stopped the kiss to help him with his shirt taking off. As soon as it reached the floor, my lips were on his again, busy with kissing him.
I lead him to the bed and lay him down there carefully, but didn't stop to kiss him. Our tongues were fighting inside his mouth and I started to stroke over his chest, pinched his nipples now and then.
When we ended our kiss because we were already panting hard I continued with my kisses on his neck, sucking at one spot of it, knowing he would hate me for that, but I wanted to mark him as mine. I kissed his lips shortly as an excuse and then moved back to his neck. I followed a line over his collarbone to his chest, kissed every inch of his skin I could find. He moved uneasy under me and I knew how much he enjoyed my caresses.
When I bit in one of his nipples he let out a deep moan and his hands were starting to stroke over my chest and moved more down to my pants. I couldn't hide a smile when I looked up into his face.
“Someone is really impatient.” I said cheeky.
He glared at me with his dazed eyes. “Your fault.” He answered and reached for my lips to kiss my passionately.
I returned it like him and moved with my hands towards his pants, too. I couldn't wait to see him full naked under me. I got already hard when I was only thinking about this.
I was sure he noticed it because now it was his turn to smile cheeky.
“I am impatient?” He asked playfully and touched my member through the pants, what made me groan.
I didn't reply to his question, I just kissed him excited. Now it was his turn to moan again and I took his pants off with his help. And he didn't wait and undressed me as well, so that we were full naked now.
Lightly breathless I looked at his body. Every time I saw him like that, I was speechless. And he always blushed.
I slowly touched his chest with my fingers when our lips crashed on each other again. I followed an invisible line to his lower body and finally touched his member. He was as hard as I was. I slowly stroked his member with my fingers until I took it in my fist and began to rubbed it. He let go the kiss and moan in pleasure while his hands clutched at my shoulders.
But I didn't do him a favor and let him come already. He should come together with me so I stopped the rubbing what he replied with a frustrated look.
“Lie down.” I told him with a husky voice and he did fast as he was told. I was between his legs and kissed his chest again while my hand was moving to his butt. I didn't say anything as I entered a finger in him and he only moaned excited. So I didn't wait and added a second finger in him which made him moan loader. I smiled, knew that he was enjoying my preparation. I moved my fingers inside him, made him moan loader and faster, made his heart beating faster.
When I was sure, I prepared him enough, I took my fingers out of him and placed me over him. I kissed his lips short and then looked into his eyes, while I was slowly put myself into him. But he wasn't showing any pain and I was glad.
Then I was full in him and moved carefully in and out, still my eyes on his ones, so I could stop when he felt uncomfortable. But there was no sign of it and I started to make my thrusts faster and deeper. I searched for his sweet spot to hear him groan full of pleasure and I found it really fast. I hold onto this spot and it didn't take long until his fingers clawed into my shoulders.
I was sure, he was near his climax now, just like me, and I reached for his member again to rub it in the same rhythm as my thrusts.
And after some more thrusts and rubs he came long and with a deep moan in my hand. I stopped the rubs and concentrated on my thrusts and after two more of them I came inside him.
You're my only star
No one knows about anything, don't worry
Look at my eyes, I'll protect you
I'm by your side, just like this
Exhausted I pulled myself out off him and lay down next to him. He didn't let pass a second, he was right there in my arms, snuggled deep in them. We tried to reach our normal breath again and I was listening to the hand of the clock ticking. One, two, three, four, five...
“Kyu Jong?”
I looked into his eyes, wondering what he was thinking about, because I could see some fear in them. I kissed his forehead to let him know I was listening.
“Do you think.. they know something?” He asked silently.
I saw the point of his fear. I was wondering the same because I couldn't imagine how they would react if they knew about me and him. Would they be like now if they would know about us?
His eyes were still on mine, fear mirrored in them. I wanted to make it disappear so I smiled.
“Even if they knew, it would be alright.” I kissed his forehead again. “I will protect you, no matter what. We will stay together even when they want to separate us, just like now.”
It's our secret, it's our secret, its our secret
It's taking control of me
“Don't you think, we should tell them. It is only fair to them.” He asked after a while.
“Maybe you're right, but we shouldn't do it now. They will be confused for sure. So we should find a good time to tell them about us. And as long as we waited for that day, it would be our secret.”
He smiled after he heard my answer and I was glad that I could take away his fear. Then he yawned under his hand and snuggled again deeper in my arms. I placed a kiss on top of his hair and stroked his back and he was falling asleep after some minutes.
But his question was controlling my mind. If we would keep it as our secret, we had to control ourselves in front of the other members. Only some gazes, only some touches on stage. And only sharing the nights together. But there would be no other time to touch him, to kiss him or feel him. I wondered how long we could stand this circumstances.
Escape everyone's eyes, spill the burden of our relationship onto me
In my dreams, I hold onto your hand proudly like everyone else and walk
In my busy day, my work, dreams and everything else are forgotten
By our love going tik tok like the hand on a clock that doesn't know how to stop
Should we really wait for the right day to tell them? Or was it better to tell them as soon as possible. I made a decision. I would tell them tomorrow before our schedule would start. It was only fair to them. And whatever they would say, they could never take him away from me. Because he was my everything.
I smiled while I pressed him closer to me and closed my eyes. The last thing I heard before I drifted into dreams of him and me were the sound from the hand of my clock.
Tik tok tik tok tik tok
(*) It's the text of the songtext and I didn't want to change it here. XD