[Fanfiction] Finally
Title: Finally [sequel to Night]
Pairing: HaeHyuk // EunHae
Rating: NC-17
Genre: angst
Disclaimer: Only the idea is mine, I don't own the boys
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I didn't know what it was, this night.
When I woke up the next day, Eunhyuk was gone and I remembered that he has said it was only for this night.
I sighed. Why shouldn't it be different, Eunhyuk was always straight with his decisions, why should he make it other with me?
But did that mean, that his 'I love you' didn't count?
"Donghae, are you awake?"
I wanted to hide myself in my bed the whole day, but we still had some things to organize so I stood up.
"Yeah, I am. Give me five minutes, hyung." I replied.
I hoped that the day would be okay and that I would survive the next night somehow.
In the evening we sat in the living room and watched TV. Eunhyuk left a bit distance between us, at least Siwon and Heechul sat between us. Siwon clinged on Eunhyuk while Heechul tried to take me in his arms because he wanted to snuggle with me. I wasn't comfortable with this and I could see that Eunhyuk also didn't like it.
I didn't dare to say something when Siwon came Eunhyuk little by little closer. I wasn't happy, when he touched his hair or his face, but who was I to complain about this?
"If you want, we can do the same." I shivered when Heechul whispered those words in my ear.
"I don't think.." But I couldn't went on to say something because someone grabbed my wrist and dragged me with him.
I winced at the sound of a slammed door and didn't dare to look up, I knew that I was in his bedroom. I could hear Eunhyuk's hard breathing and felt it on my face.
"What are you doing?" He said harshly and forced me against the wall.
"N-nothing." I stuttered and somehow I was afraid of this Eunhyuk.
"It didn't look like 'nothing'."
Was he.. jealous? Because Heechul was closer to me as he?
"Well, I don't know why you should care, first I don't want to know what Siwon did with you and second, we said that this thing between us stopped. So I don't have to tell you anything that I have with others."
"But he's only playing with you, Hae." His voice became softer.
"Even it's like this, I don't know what you care. And if we are honest. We didn't do anything else. We're playing with each other and only hurt us."
"So you still love him, even he's playing with you?" His voice sounded so hurt that I looked confused into his eyes.
"I'm not in love with him anymore." I replied silently.
Now his eyes were in surprise. "You're not? Since.."
"Since we stopped sleeping with each other. Since you didn't sleep in my bed at nights anymore. Since I realized how much I miss you. Since I fell in love with you." I whispered the last words but I knew that he heard them.
"You..? Hae.. I.."
But I stopped him from saying anything.
"Don't mind. I don't ever thought about us both as lovers. We should be friends." I smiled weakly and his eyes showed disbelief.
"Why?"
"Forget it." I wanted to escape from him, I wanted to hide myself somewhere he couldn't find me.
"You meant that really the last night." He slowly seemed to understand.
"I said forget it."
Tears were built in my eyes but I fought against them. He shouldn't see me weak by his words. I turned around to the door because I wanted to left the room, I knew that I wasn't able to hold back my tears anymore.
But before I could open the door, I was turn around again and my back met the door while my lips were closed by another pair.
Eunhyuk pressed me closer to him while I struggled against his holds, but with every second the kiss continued my fight against him became less. I grabbed his shirt with my fists and pressed me closer to him, I don't want to let the kiss end.
With hard breathes we stopped but I didn't let him go and he still held me in his arms.
"I meant it last night, too. Hae, I love you, I love you since a long time. And I only agreed to the sex thing with you because I love you, because I wanted that you did it with me and not with any other just because you couldn't have the one you loved. But I realized that I can't have you, so I said we should stop. I was so selfish and.."
This time it was me who stopped him with a kiss. And he didn't fight against it. He just let it happen and I wanted to have all of him, now.
My tongue slid over his lower lip and he didn't hesitate to open his mouth to let me inside his mouth. I explored every little inch of it and started to play with his tongue.
He moaned softly and I led him to his bed without separate our lips.
When I lay him down and climbed over him I had to stop for a short time.
“Hae, I don't think this is a good idea..” He started and I looked confused.
“Why shouldn't it be, it is the best idea I had the last days.” I said and kissed my way down to his jawline.
He turned his head to give me more room and I used it wisely. He moaned again and I couldn't help but chuckled.
“What's so funny?” He asked me and I grinned widely.
“Just a minute ago you told me that it wasn't a good idea and now you're moaning to my kisses.”
“Shut up.” He scolded me, but I knew that he didn't mean it.
So I continued with my caresses on his neck while my hands moved down to the hem of his shirt to took it off him. He didn't fight against it, his before said words seemed to be deleted in his mind. When I took his shirt off, he hurried to undress me as well and it didn't take us long until we both lay full naked on his bed.
His finger slowly drew circles on my chest and I enjoyed this. My hands didn't draw anything on his skin, because I couldn't wait to be inside him, to touch him where only I was allowed to touch him.
I kissed his lips shortly before I started to go down further more, stopped by his hard nipples to tease him a little and to hear him groan to this, to let me know that he loved it.
“Hae, stop teasing.” He managed to say between his moans and I chuckled before I kissed my way down to his hips.
When I saw his hard member my heart fluttered more and I wonder why it was like this. It wasn't because I saw this the first time, how many times lay he under me before. Maybe it was because this time we both knew we would sleep with each other because we loved us.
“Everything's alright?”
I looked up in his beautiful eyes and smiled. “Yes.” I whispered before leaning down and took his member full with my mouth.
He groaned hardly when I started to suck and teased it with my tongue. His hands found their way into my hair and he stroke over it before he held my head down so I wouldn't stop with this. But I never had the intention to stop sucking on his member.
“So.. good, Hae.” He moaned and let my head go.
I felt how he got even more harder and knew that he wouldn't take long anymore so I stopped my teasing and looked up while I licked my lips.
“Why did you stop?” He complained but I kissed his lips softly.
“It wouldn't be fun, if only you had all what you need, right?” I grinned and he returned it.
I let one of my hand slowly moved to his backside while my lips kissed his jawline again. When I found his back entrance I moved my lips to his ear.
“I can't wait to feel you.” I whispered into his ear and he replied with a moan.
“Don't let me wait too long.” He answered and I pushed my fingers into him.
He groaned out loud and made me even hotter with this, my need for him grew to the ultimate.
I didn't care about a goof preparation anymore and I knew that he would understand me. I kissed his lips again and smiled softly.
“You know, I'll be gentle.” I said and he nodded while he returned the smile with so much love in it.
“I know.”
Again I placed a kiss on his lips and positioned myself right over him. After a short look into his eyes I started to moved my member inside him, carefully and slowly. I concentrate on the motion pictured in his face so I could stop when I started to hurt him. But all I could see was passion and that he full enjoyed this.
He started to move his hips when I was with my whole length inside him and I moaned loud in satisfaction before I followed his movements and take overhand this situation. He cooperated without any complains and let me guide him with my thrusts.
It didn't take long until I was sure that I couldn't hold it back any longer and I saw in his eyes that he was about to come as well.
“Hae.. I..” He couldn't go on because his climax overcame him sudden.
And with his butt muscle be tighter around me I finally came deep inside him, moaning out loud his name.
Exhausted I took myself off him before I lay down next to him and took him into my arms where he snuggled into suddenly.
“I love you, Hae.” He whispered sweetly and placed butterfly kisses on my chest.
I smiled, trying to ignore the tears that built up. Finally he said it, finally I could be with him not only because of the sex.
“I love you, too, Hyukkie.”