.....For All

[kokuei_ookami]

Dear LJ friends, close friends, and readers,

I am unhappy. I truely hate myself and have no idea how to start liking myself. I feel like this great big world is out to get me; and it has been since I was very young. My hopes and dreams, are being shattered slowly by the life I have been given, as if I'm some kind of joke you see on tv. Sometimes I

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[milubbpunk]

sara i love you.

one good thing is that soon you will be out of there, and away from the constant fighting. im grateful for your grandmother, though i don't know her, because she seems to be the kind of person that you would need at times such as these.

iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou

[kokuei_ookami]

Sorry to say, loving me isn't going to make things alright. Yes, I do feel somewhatly warm inside from you telling me you love me, and I love you the same way. But out of this soon? Another year, if not longer will be spent in this hell.

My grandmother is a wonderful person. And she's sending herself to an early grave because of my mother and I. Like I said, never once have I seen her cry; but now I have.. and that scares me. I wish to die and may god take pity on my soul and take me.

[milubbpunk]

i know. but i do. and dont ever forget it.

true though, as you get older the years pass more quickly. maybe the next year will go by so quickly that you will have to catch your breath at the end.

i really do hope you feel better soon. <3

[xdesensitizedx]

no... it is only the beginning

♥

[alluringrapture]

sara darling
i can totally relate to you in many ways. my mom tells me i'm fat, and that she hates me, and i'm a disapointment because i get horrid grades and such. i hate coming home, and i understand where you are coming from there.

as for everything else, it iwll get better in tie i hope. i mean, i really don't know what to say, i'm really not good at this stuff. you do have many people that care and maybe you need to take a little vacation. just by yourself, to reflect, to get away. if you need anyone to talk to, you know i'm here. i love you darling ♥ ali

[_3chalkoutlines]

Even I, your best friend, can't truly understand how much you hurt inside. But I want you to know that I hope all the best for you, your mom, and your grandma. Perhaps this year will breeze through; we can't tell yet.

But until then, I want you to be one of the strongest girls you can be. I know that we have our separate battles, but they're still battles nonetheless. I'll be there when you fall, and I'll be there with the first aid kit, too(as I'm sure others would be). I love you just like a good friend should, and I know that you won't forget that.

You've gone through so much, it boggles my mind how you're still here. I'm proud of your strength, and I am confident that you can carry on. However, should you ever feel low, I'll help pull you back up.

<3 you always and forever
Lauren

[kokuei_ookami]

I wish to be happy, and have a smile on my face that is real. I want to be like you; almost. I see you and sometimes you glow with happiness. I know you will always be there for me, you always have been. And I'm so glad I made a friend in you. Though sometimes I don't deserve it; I know I don't.. You've always been there.

I just want it to end so much right now. All this pain and hate towards myself and what others give me. I can't pretend anymore, because it's sucking the life out of me.

[white_ookami]

Sara, I luff you to the ends of the world, first off. I've known you for at least three years - at least. And you've been such an amazing friend. You're such a strong person in my eyes - and I've so admired you for that. I cannot truly know how you feel, but I have a bit of knowledge of where you come from. I have major - MAJOR problems with my mother as well. I'm so glad you're the mature one - aren't we both the ones who have to be the adults with our mothers? But you've taken it all for a long time. I DO believe you're going to pull through this, and I DO believe you can last another year, before you can finally leave your house for college.

Just keep moving forwards - never look back. <3

~Rosie