hello goodbye

[komeyama]

I don't like the eating disorder, I am just having a hard time disliking it

When I laughingly say I don't want to grow up, I'm not joking. I really am terrified

I believe that everyone's flaws should be accepted and forgiven except for mine

I feel nothing most of the time and I wait to see your reactions before I know how to respond/reply/react myself

Comments

[komeyama]

You do, yeah.

;_;

[salwaphoenix]

was dropping by to see the author of fics posted at arashirabu..

this entry.. you sounded like me, in my head o_o

thumbs up for having the courage of posting it.
it's very rare.

^^

[komeyama]

Thanks for your comment! The reason why I didn't answer is that I just moved and I don't have the internet connection set up yet.... (just wanted to say)
Because, thank you for commenting... ^^
I think I often tend to be maybe even too honest, and then I post stuff like this.. ^^; yeah.. ^^
(I'm working on new fics at least XD)

[gurashiera]

I can connect to some of the things you write.

I feel just the same way, and I have an eating disorder (that I overcome and then fall back into again).

I allways think back at when I was a kid, and I had no big worries, and I was so happy. And I wished that time would have lasted forever.

I don't wan't to grow up either, cause growing needs experience, pain and repsonsability. Which I it's hard. Life is hard.

Right now, I actually feel kind of good though. But the problem is, that I quickly can fall back into eating disorder again, if I think I look to thick. :(

[komeyama]

Sorry for late reply (I also just added you back ^^) I'm moving, so I can't go online, cause I didnt set up an internet connection yet..

What is your eating disorder - like, I mean, are you too thin/big, eat too much/little or.... mah..
Anyway, I hope you can continue feeling good :)
I actually do think it's possible to kind of "grow out of it"... sort of...

[gurashiera]

I'm underwheight, thin - in my eyes i'm not thin though, that's the problem. :/
Sometimes I've overeaten also, and very often I've eaten normal but just done a lot of sports to burn calories.

But the problem is what is going on inside my head, affected of everything arround me off course... But I really try to fight my eating disorders right know, the best I can!