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[komischqd]

I'm seriously thinking about getting an adult diploma instead of graduating this year with my class. Right now, I don't really care about graduating with my class much. I'm pretty indifferent about things these days. I got an extention for community service, I have till the 16th to finish them and turn in my reflection paper because I didn't do

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[greenspyders]

...but youre in your second semester of senior year! you're almost there!...You know ill love you with whatever choice you make, but think hard about this one for me and for yourself..

[komischqd]

I have thought long and hard about it. This is the 2nd time it's come up as a serious option. (Read the other comment I made)

[komischqd]

Oh, and even if I do pass all my classes and pass my panel for the Senior project and get my community service hours done and everything... there's still that small problem of having 10 absenses in my 2nd period class (Photography) and not all of them are excused and apparently that means I don't qualify for redeaming them or whatever it is you do to have them go away. No matter how hard I try, I still don't think I'll fullfil all my graduation requirements on time. And then we just got our Senior memory notebook project info today which is another heap of work on top of all the shit I've gotta do. Plus, I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna say in front of the panel for my senior project. I didn't do shit and I'm not very good at lying or BSing stuff. I have a feeling that I probably won't be passing that.
So I'm still going to try... but I'm pretty set on doing the adult diploma thing. Though, I have almost no motivation to do anything, none, I'm a lazy piece of shit these days :-\

[komischqd]

I just told my mom, a a pretty straight foward manner about what I'm going to do. I didn't let her bitch at me for how much I've screwed up, I reminded her, as I always do everytime it comes up, that I hate myself enough for the both of us for how much I've fucked myself over in school. Does she think I don't care at all? I yell at myself in my head all the time for being so stupid and irresponsible, I don't need someone else adding to it, I do it enough already

[tweekyx12]

Well, I guess everyone gets shit for their fuck ups. I'm really sorry that people yell at you for them, even after they know how much you beat yourself up inside over it. And it kinda sounds like everyone else got it easier than you and had less consequences for their "stupid" things that they've done. But in my opinion, those "stupid" things that people do are part of life. Kids not doing well in school, that's part of life, school may not be their best thing. And maybe it's just because I'm a teenager too and I fuck up too, but I don't think people should get yelled at for life. I love you, Gill. You're a super-duper cool person, even if you are gonna be at shorecrest another year... that just makes us that don't graduate lucky to still have you there next year! Don't beat yourself up over it.

[komischqd]

Except I'm not coming back to Shorecrest, I'm finishing at the college. To qualify for the adult diploma, I have to pay for at least one class I take at the college so I'm going to AZ from the beginning of July til Dec/Jan and then coming back to start school at the college Winter quarter (starts in Feb I believe) to finish up my credits to get my adult diploma. I still have to talk to the lady at the college to make sure my plan will work, make sure that I can wait until Winter quarter to finish up the credits an' all. Hopefully it'll all work out how I want it to cause that will really suck if I can't stay in AZ as long as I plan to.

[tweekyx12]

Ah I see. Shoreline Comm college? Cause I'm taking classes there next year with running start, so either way, I'll still be lucky enough to get to see you. hee hee. I hope it all works out for you though.