i dont believe everyone lets everyone lets down, that's a bit ridiculous in my opinion. how could we have a society if that were true? the only important thing is to trust myself. As for me, there's only one person who ever "let me down". Some people I simply don't want in my life because of who they are. People who are in my life I trust. People who I have no choice for being apart of my life, there is absolutely no reason to trust them. I'm not close with them, in general people lie, in work people try to step on you to reach the top. That is all. I trust myself.
- i definitely wanted to be more positive this year. it's been a common thread in the years past for me... if i go into a year thinking positive and insisting on trying my best at putting nothing but positive energy out into the world... it's been a good year with a lot of memories. the years that i started off poorly and made no attempt at being a better person... the year has gone more sour or with fewer things worth remembering and i hate looking back on myself like that thinking "what a bitch i was..." i did pretty good this year. the hardest part is keeping up with it. sometimes you just want to give in to the bitter feelings... but i hate looking back on it. that's what keeps me up
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I learned yesterday... to not put things in future test "i'm going to.. i will.." because in your mind it will always be the future. if you tell yourself "I AM." I'm happy. I'm focused. I feel content. I try hard. etc. it already puts our mind and body in the sence that it is all true NOW and shall continue to be true if you think like that. feels kind of powerful... some times feels like you're a liar lol but you gotta set that aside knowing inside it is what you "will" be... so technically you're not lying to yourself :] just puttin it in present form
living on my own i never hated buying food... now that I buy food for other people... yeah it pisses me off... I feel i want a separate frienge, or freak out saying ":those snackwere suppose to be for a month of school days!!!!!" and gone in 4 days. or food going bad... or people ordering out when there's plenty food in the house... i feel like a mother lol
You can borrow some of my Kaku. (hee that sounds silly) I just finally for the first time, moved on from kaku cuz he wasn't writing enough lol i read all his books I could find at least twice, depending how long ago. So I tried other authors... right now I'm reading a book called of art and physics by a guy who is niether and artist or a physasist and sort of has the same tone as Kaku, but some points feels like a history book.. -.- and, i haven't started it yet, but i got a book "the physics of super heros
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I hear you about not trusting people. Everyone lets everyone down (and that includes me).
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